Problem

Should we have listened to the flawed logic of the people in Florida?

1st Class

As I walked around Orlando, though I hadn't slept, I kept thinking of the kids in the class like eventually the entire time and laughing at my day's adventures.  I wasn't so much thinking of how pretty I was.. nor about how the teacher looked..  So, when I got in the bath, I thought of what I thought of the teacher and probably other things I don't really remember.  But I was tired and got into bed.  I fell asleep right away, avoided thinking about her, and woke up, finally got out of bed after maybe over 12 hours.  Too bad I was partly awake a lot of that time.  Now, I have to call for transportation!  I thought it was 24 hours but guess it's 1 day.

My Day So Far

I went to tennis. Health, 2 hours, with exercise, is full. A big, bright-haired theatre girl from Chicago was in the car, and I talked the whole time, had class with Ginny. Got $50 of supplies. Phone running out some..

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Problem

So, who would waste their time just hating on me for attention?  Someone who doesn't like to work-think, like who is spoiled and all about 1 thing that they're not supposed to do?  They must have quite a "culture shock."

Being Right and Saving Things for Later

Nell Burton is considered right because her dad is from L.A.  I don't know why his family is from Burbank, but all the broadcasting is there.  I guess she's saving it for later.

Helping Someone

There was a thin, blonde, blue-eyed boy with a buzz on the side of the road who asked me for a smoke and then for 50¢ and I gave him $1 50¢.  He was on a bus to the port.

Problem

No, I don't know anyone other than my little girl cousin, who is a conundrum, who is from certain areas of Florida with parents from up north.

Why am I drawing in my dad just to pleasure others, things that have nothing to do with me.  Why do people think I'm just fragile and immobile?  I know I was kinda like that at 1 point growing, but this is ridiculous.  I'd have gotten over this.  What, so I get no treat?

Family Trip

My mom and brother just got home from a trip to India, taking a class. They look so solid and feel so good and said it was so cold. Their skin is a darker shade.

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Something Weird

I just realized that it's all about kids with dads from L.A. and Florida.

Ages of Places

I just found that Fort Lauderdale is the oldest, like early 1800s, then Key West had a fort as well in the mid 1800s and became the most successful place, then Miami.  I guess the early English settlers of Jamestown are the next best place to go to.  I just found Miami was found late 1800s and Key West early 1800s.  I guess Key West is interesting.  So is Fort Lauderdale.  Miami is in the middle.

I'm not sure what's so interesting about like ... I dunno like who's in on what if it's about people in Europe and people I guess in certain parts of the U.S.  I wonder what a European does in Key West.  I guess if you were from another part of the U.S. before that you would have more heritage there.  Also, very old colonies are interesting.  I think it's interesting, the English.  I know the oldest continuously and 2nd overall oldest city in the U.S. is Spanish, so I guess the mixing pots of Key West and Fort Lauderdale are of more prestige.  See, there's this movie that used to be in the wax muesum when I went back to visit.  It showed a girl drowning in a boat who was Spanish.  It makes me think of the old Spanish play.  They even had a church.  So, it seemed like Egypt or something.  It was a big, dark ocean, and she got lost.  She was so pretty.  There was another movie.  Wait this is in the vistor's center.  The other 1 in the wax museum showed a boy chosing to go through the trees and finding skeletons.

I think Ellen DeGeneres's mom probably has ancesetry in New Orleans (I already forget, it was discovered in the 1600s ... 1690.)  It seems her mom's ancestry dates back to the 1800s.  I don't see what that has to do with people from other areas of the country.  I read her father isn't from the U.S.  In the interview, he didn't have an accent.  I know the English here sometimes don't use an accent, but they know the accent.  Well, I mean, it's interesting because we're interested in that, people from out-of-the-U.S.

Problem

I don't care about you people not from the Southern U.S.A. culture spreading your culture around the world.  I don't mean that no I would never do anything like that nor that I've thought about that kind of thing.

Cultural Appreciation

Does Ellen DeGeneres honestly believe people generally pack their things and head down to historical sites?  I guess they do in New Orleans, but I mean it seems more like it's from the early 1900s.

In the nation's oldest continuing city in Northeastern Florida, which is Spanish and very, very hot other than in the winter and maybe some of the fall, unsure, imagine like homeschooled girls.  I remember the theater, but like the kids weren't all like old-fashioned.  1 was friends with a girl from New Jersey, not big roles I saw in the historical thing.

I don't know why it seems so Hollywood creepy to you.  I guess that's like the thing waiting to happen.  Wish someone would like tell me what they want to know.

My Friends

So, my friends were mostly not from the South.  Pretty much, it seemed like all of them weren't.  I mean, yes, I've met people who came from New Orleans.

Where You're From

What do you think about people who were born in Florida or California, a long time ago?  Or New Orleans?  Or maybe Cleveland?  You know, any old place would be interesting to someone else.  I'm not sure how  interesting Pennsylvania and New York would be, but I never lived there..  The nice thing about Pennsylvania and New York is it's kinda physical and a place where you can move around.  I don't know about saying it isn't modern.  Maybe, it's just moral.

TV

I just watched some of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I saw a picture of a lady with a face that was melting.  I realized about living in the nation's oldest continuing city.  It is a haunting place.  Florida is, too.  My mom also is not from the U.S.  However, when you're there, it's just kinda like not much there.  It's like fixed up with like you just see like the old buildings of like benches in the schools, you know from maybe the 1600s or 1700s or maybe 1800s.  I think they had photos of old people alive who went there.  I did a camp.  I remember seeing like the old Spanish stuff, the things hanging up, the way they wash each cup.  It just seemed normal, kinda clean and tidy but maybe haunting to think of the racism.  I don't think they were pictured as tan tan like South America nor slick.  I don't know what they looked like.  I know rich people did some stuff there, but obviously it's not all over.  I know I toured it a lot, and people who visited think they have a grasp.  3 years.  I never thought of it as a ghost town.  I know some people there, but they don't talk to me, now.  The ghost tour might be cool, but in Key West it just seemed kinda normal.  I don't know, it was about people jumping from a hotel I remember and like mixed people in a grave.  There was a joke about it being bad for tourism, Diamond Dave.  He looked like the dad in My Fair Lady with a top hat.  I remember now seeing the thing about the house on the street with the doll that moved over.  Not sure when it was, but it seemed like around 1900, possibly.  I was with my little girl cousin alone, and she held my hand, though of course it didn't help enough.  That reminds me of New Orleans.  For some reason, I know a lot about that place.

Problem

I just got mad and this Dutch American poster Chuppah is back.

I got another message that the n word things means something.  Just *beep* Ellen DeGeneres.

Stop telling me I'm my dad.

Problem

I have a problem.  People in Orlando are upset at the way they wasted their time here.  They think it's all about how long you lived here.

Worried

I don't think it's right to hurt black people and not right to criticize people that it happened.

I don't believe in this fantasy of white people, like Germans in Florida.  Just fuck them to d****.  Hm, I don't know exactly what I mean.

Signs of Racism

Annoying White People

So, what you're teaching black people to cut their nails at us?  GO TO HELL *BEEP*

So, in an underhanded way, they're like happily snidely yet like evilly which is the same thing in a way as snidely.. like sorta creepily, sneakily flinging around thoughts of hatred to people with non-white blood, however I believe these people also have non-white blood.  It might be about being from Orlando.  However, they are connecting it to all of Florida.  Also, it's the black people and like the hidden motives of the white people.

Something Odd

I wonder why Florida has become so stupid ... assuming the school did this, themselves ... Orlando is stupid.  They think they're flauncy.  They literally hurt you and look at you evilly like it's ***y.  I think they don't realize there will be a reason to regret doing this, all the time.  Word has gotten around that people do this sometimes, by mistake.

I don't know if I'd go to that class, but I'd probably sign up and see if I make it.  I want to wait and take it at the college, maybe, but I assumed the students were mostly pretty young.

So, why should we have a silly rule so we can't sign up for classes?  You have to answer.  I know it was so that people will miss signing up.  I was gonna sign up before the holidays, forgot to check again before.  I just don't have a perfect life, though I'm always at home or taking a walk or something and buying the healthier fast food.  So, why do they want us to miss signing up?  I guess I have to see if I still have to take these requirements.  I didn't need them, before.  I couldn't even sign up for prep math.  I don't even know what the requirements say.  It's a chart.  I still feel pressured by the school to take a class.

I left McDonald's today, and for some reason this black girl was mean to me, as it closed.  She seemed giddy on the inside like she was in on something but perhaps upset she was working.

Also, I noticed that people here are retarded and think I'm retarded and not the schools.  Hm, so, I did activities.  Um, yea.  It's the school's responsibility to prepare us for college, something they always rubbed in.  I guess they were kinda underhanded in the New Orleans area, as well.  I didn't get in Gifted and I found it a goof-off class, in some ways.  Me not being in Talented Theater my 1st year ruined everything, and me not doing Talented Music my 1st year the teacher left and I found I didn't have a foundation.  Art was good, but I found I couldn't paint.

Why has Orlando become so stupid?  Ever since I came home from college, it's been this way.  I mean, I came here for a little while before college and in between.  I don't remember much.  Hm, now I do.  Oh, well.

I think people here do care if the school did it like because of my dad or something.  It's not a joke.  My grades are my business and not my fault.  The environment is not conducive.  I know the people in the schools are racist.  They think it's their responsibility.  I don't see how postponing signing up for classes helps.  I know it was a big thing.