My resolution is: to become healthier with money.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Problem
So, when I was 1 I think I felt fat. I was a good girl. I just was shy and people found that annoying, which was mean and showed they were wrong. There was nothing I could say because they didn't connect with me as being more white than they thought because my ancestry dating back years ago...
Then, when I was 2, for some reason, I was kinda dark and fatter, still. I had started gymnastics, already, though, so I dunno. I don't know what I looked like in between. I don't remember. I think I felt like crap. I probably went haywire like an Asian American. Ha ha ha...
So, then the gymnastics made me strong and people "liked" me..
My brother was born when I was 5. I was still in gymnastics. I looked fatter I know when my hair was cut, which maybe it was cut before. I started ballet, and my head got big. By the way, I could never remember any of it. I moved and didn't like the easy school. So, I looked okay for awhile. I think my cousin, who would only have been 1, wrote to me and I forgot to write back and I think that made me not get a blog when the internet came out. I felt like knocked out, maybe by my mom, not to write back, and my dad didn't intercede. So, he can't get mad. That's true. So, I know I looked pretty when I was 7 and did baton at Christmas. However, I don't think I have the picture but may though my mom didn't develop any of the pictures I asked her to develop! So, then, I was baton leader of little kids mostly and I started to look kinda old. I did more gymnastics and quit ballet, and then I looked worse. I guess I looked better at some point in the easy ballet school, or a bit after. It was probably 1 of the best Christmas experiences, when I was 7.
So, then, I was 9, and I grew my bangs out. My hair got thicker, somehow. We lived by the water, directly on it this time. It was also a preserved city, the nation's oldest.
I got fatter when I was 12 when I found I was moving. I'm not sure who caused it. I think it was my piano teacher. I'm not sure, she must have been suggestive at weird things that happened, really bad. I just really suspect her. My mom had us not walk as much, though we walked to my piano recital, I think.
I started ballet and stayed in it so I wouldn't get scoliosis again. I also was in martial arts, which seemed to help my weight a lot, just once a week, with grappling. I also did tennis lessons with my brother and at 1st my mom, too, used to do it with a friend, too.
So, I switched ballet schools and for some reason got more plump, also trying to become cuter. My friend encouraged me. It did teach me more classical, puppety ballet, but not like classical puppets..
16, I had a hard lecture reading history course in gifted because it was combined with advanced placement, which is for the advanced placement test for college credit, which isn't actually that popular. I went to the mental hospital and gained weight even before. I was losing weight a lot and was not bony but thin.
17 I moved schools and was really busy and got into music college.
I was kicked out of my major, probably for staying up until 5, and my grades were marked down. So, I couldn't move schools and was at a prestigious college on a high scholarship for a specific study. It also had ballet that performs, which I didn't perform my 1st year, for some reason. Then, I went up north and something happened to my back and I started eating sweets. I came home and my parents didn't let me eat baby food and formula because it had cost a lot. I got fat. So, I went and did ballet and didn't go to the gym and because of that I got even fatter, unless I didn't know it was because I got fat when I came home. That kind of thing has happened before. Also, the construction made it so I couldn't study, and there was no material the same on the test as in the reading, anyway. Next semester, I heard noises in my ear that made me want to commit suicide. I was crawling to get back in my major, and the stuck up people in New Orleans still were being racist because of Johnny Depp and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It so happens the history course was during Pirates of the Caribbean. I didn't see the ads at the movies I went to, which were the popular 1s.
So, I came home and I was so tired going out and had to stop going out and had some problems with my head from how my dad drove, though I think buses and taxis would drive like that and I wanted to be a movie actor or like you know do whatever I was supposed to otherwise to start to become 1 in the business. Like I wanted to work at a restaurant in L.A. but assume that's overrated. Anyway, it was really mean how my dad drove. It might have helped, like injuries can help. I know music and coming home and relaxing for once in my life made me sensitive to noise. I did ballet for awhile. I got thinner, but I wanted to get taller and I guess it was fun not to do it and it wasn't a great school, though it provided a sweat. I forget what else I was gonna say, oh, yea, I wanted to sleep in. So, we moved to a house since there was noise all the time more and more, like every 15 seconds, even a lot at night, if not that much. I didn't think to wear earplugs but had a fan. I stayed in my room a lot and ate what my parents got, but I didn't even go outside until my mom presented me with keys, guess it might have been too late. Then, I went to the mental hospital, supposedly for punching my wall, going to a spa and trying to get blackheads out which ruined plugs that were happening in my forehead and then I thought in an experiment I was supposed to call a girl toddler the n word, also thought the spa lady hypnotized me to do it for not talking more about the internet. I was telling her how I got blackheads. I was on a lot of medicine for a long time and finally found a reason to quit. It made me even fatter and weaker and kinda like nothing mattered, ever since the n word thing, when Tim Burton stopped pretending to post online to me. Since then, a few complications have occurred.
So what I have to say about that is it would just be when I was 8 when I didn't write my cousin that I looked ugly and when I was 5 and started ballet. It was because I did gymnastics, too, not sure "what" happened to the other girls. I mean, it was like I knew what was wrong. I didn't cheat and say oh I did nothing all my life so am free for ballet, you know? Like not doing gymnastics is what makes you good at ballet.
I went to the mental hospital when I was 16 with that hard history course, too. I was fat after that, affected from it. Only a week. Here I went a month.
Then, when I was 2, for some reason, I was kinda dark and fatter, still. I had started gymnastics, already, though, so I dunno. I don't know what I looked like in between. I don't remember. I think I felt like crap. I probably went haywire like an Asian American. Ha ha ha...
So, then the gymnastics made me strong and people "liked" me..
My brother was born when I was 5. I was still in gymnastics. I looked fatter I know when my hair was cut, which maybe it was cut before. I started ballet, and my head got big. By the way, I could never remember any of it. I moved and didn't like the easy school. So, I looked okay for awhile. I think my cousin, who would only have been 1, wrote to me and I forgot to write back and I think that made me not get a blog when the internet came out. I felt like knocked out, maybe by my mom, not to write back, and my dad didn't intercede. So, he can't get mad. That's true. So, I know I looked pretty when I was 7 and did baton at Christmas. However, I don't think I have the picture but may though my mom didn't develop any of the pictures I asked her to develop! So, then, I was baton leader of little kids mostly and I started to look kinda old. I did more gymnastics and quit ballet, and then I looked worse. I guess I looked better at some point in the easy ballet school, or a bit after. It was probably 1 of the best Christmas experiences, when I was 7.
So, then, I was 9, and I grew my bangs out. My hair got thicker, somehow. We lived by the water, directly on it this time. It was also a preserved city, the nation's oldest.
I got fatter when I was 12 when I found I was moving. I'm not sure who caused it. I think it was my piano teacher. I'm not sure, she must have been suggestive at weird things that happened, really bad. I just really suspect her. My mom had us not walk as much, though we walked to my piano recital, I think.
I started ballet and stayed in it so I wouldn't get scoliosis again. I also was in martial arts, which seemed to help my weight a lot, just once a week, with grappling. I also did tennis lessons with my brother and at 1st my mom, too, used to do it with a friend, too.
So, I switched ballet schools and for some reason got more plump, also trying to become cuter. My friend encouraged me. It did teach me more classical, puppety ballet, but not like classical puppets..
16, I had a hard lecture reading history course in gifted because it was combined with advanced placement, which is for the advanced placement test for college credit, which isn't actually that popular. I went to the mental hospital and gained weight even before. I was losing weight a lot and was not bony but thin.
17 I moved schools and was really busy and got into music college.
I was kicked out of my major, probably for staying up until 5, and my grades were marked down. So, I couldn't move schools and was at a prestigious college on a high scholarship for a specific study. It also had ballet that performs, which I didn't perform my 1st year, for some reason. Then, I went up north and something happened to my back and I started eating sweets. I came home and my parents didn't let me eat baby food and formula because it had cost a lot. I got fat. So, I went and did ballet and didn't go to the gym and because of that I got even fatter, unless I didn't know it was because I got fat when I came home. That kind of thing has happened before. Also, the construction made it so I couldn't study, and there was no material the same on the test as in the reading, anyway. Next semester, I heard noises in my ear that made me want to commit suicide. I was crawling to get back in my major, and the stuck up people in New Orleans still were being racist because of Johnny Depp and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It so happens the history course was during Pirates of the Caribbean. I didn't see the ads at the movies I went to, which were the popular 1s.
So, I came home and I was so tired going out and had to stop going out and had some problems with my head from how my dad drove, though I think buses and taxis would drive like that and I wanted to be a movie actor or like you know do whatever I was supposed to otherwise to start to become 1 in the business. Like I wanted to work at a restaurant in L.A. but assume that's overrated. Anyway, it was really mean how my dad drove. It might have helped, like injuries can help. I know music and coming home and relaxing for once in my life made me sensitive to noise. I did ballet for awhile. I got thinner, but I wanted to get taller and I guess it was fun not to do it and it wasn't a great school, though it provided a sweat. I forget what else I was gonna say, oh, yea, I wanted to sleep in. So, we moved to a house since there was noise all the time more and more, like every 15 seconds, even a lot at night, if not that much. I didn't think to wear earplugs but had a fan. I stayed in my room a lot and ate what my parents got, but I didn't even go outside until my mom presented me with keys, guess it might have been too late. Then, I went to the mental hospital, supposedly for punching my wall, going to a spa and trying to get blackheads out which ruined plugs that were happening in my forehead and then I thought in an experiment I was supposed to call a girl toddler the n word, also thought the spa lady hypnotized me to do it for not talking more about the internet. I was telling her how I got blackheads. I was on a lot of medicine for a long time and finally found a reason to quit. It made me even fatter and weaker and kinda like nothing mattered, ever since the n word thing, when Tim Burton stopped pretending to post online to me. Since then, a few complications have occurred.
So what I have to say about that is it would just be when I was 8 when I didn't write my cousin that I looked ugly and when I was 5 and started ballet. It was because I did gymnastics, too, not sure "what" happened to the other girls. I mean, it was like I knew what was wrong. I didn't cheat and say oh I did nothing all my life so am free for ballet, you know? Like not doing gymnastics is what makes you good at ballet.
I went to the mental hospital when I was 16 with that hard history course, too. I was fat after that, affected from it. Only a week. Here I went a month.
Problem
I found that Ellen DeGeneres actually doesn't have the personality she thinks she has in her arsenal. She is kinda mean to child prodigies and gets racist and lingers on it. Also, she thinks she's important.
Problem
Tim Burton, you can't rub in to the world that Helena Bonham Carter is pretty and my mom is ugly. Why don't you like leave me alone in that light?
Also, why do you think the world stops because of you?
Why are you so like backing away like every little thing will hurt you?
I thought you stood for something. You didn't do shit.
Also, why do you think the world stops because of you?
Why are you so like backing away like every little thing will hurt you?
I thought you stood for something. You didn't do shit.
Problem
I don't think my mom wants to be in glasses at her age. I'm not sure what her problem is with Tim Burton. Helena Bonham Carter has money so probably doesn't need them.. It was something to do I know with that he apparently did art and wanted to say that like everyone else has to do something that's like worse than him and then he depended on his swimming maybe to give him the artistic stamina. Hm, I did that with singing in college, I know, and probably it enhanced my art. I did gymnastics hand in hand as a kid. I got glasses at 9, and I blame the kids at school. Also, I suddenly had lots to copy from the board that year, so I blame that, too. Too bad that was so far my favorite teacher.
Problem
Why does Tim Burton protect Nell racially against Eurasians who look white? Hm, maybe he doesn't.
Problem
Tim Burton probably would really not be serious that my mom has glasses and think she was bound to. However, most people wouldn't agree.
I just realized that it was like my mom didn't have fun in this country, and people who read it will say I'm spewing negro. That's what's not right. Kids have been doing that since Johnny Depp. I mean, she sees my dad, all the time. The woman doesn't necessarily work. What is it with my dad and money? I mean, we're not the poorest. Are we really that poor? My dad acts like my mom doesn't provide him with food, but he also complains he's too fat and doesn't want to eat and doesn't work out on his own. They actually rubbed in a lot that I didn't want him to. They thought maybe I liked him to give me attention. Why do you go off into bullshit thinking that's okay! D:' I MEAN OKAY THAT THEY THINK THAT!!! WHAT ARE YOU A PIECE OF SHIT.
I just realized that it was like my mom didn't have fun in this country, and people who read it will say I'm spewing negro. That's what's not right. Kids have been doing that since Johnny Depp. I mean, she sees my dad, all the time. The woman doesn't necessarily work. What is it with my dad and money? I mean, we're not the poorest. Are we really that poor? My dad acts like my mom doesn't provide him with food, but he also complains he's too fat and doesn't want to eat and doesn't work out on his own. They actually rubbed in a lot that I didn't want him to. They thought maybe I liked him to give me attention. Why do you go off into bullshit thinking that's okay! D:' I MEAN OKAY THAT THEY THINK THAT!!! WHAT ARE YOU A PIECE OF SHIT.
Problem
So, why would I follow like 100 IMDb accounts that are supposedly Tim Burton and then he stops and people are mean to me.
Then, something else I don't remember.
It seems like the highlight of my life is my Blogger background. It might not be the best background for the public, but it's a clever theme that follows popular trends. I personally enjoy it.
Oh yes, why make fun of someone for being accurate?
Then, something else I don't remember.
It seems like the highlight of my life is my Blogger background. It might not be the best background for the public, but it's a clever theme that follows popular trends. I personally enjoy it.
Oh yes, why make fun of someone for being accurate?
Doing Chores
I actually did the dishes, last night, and even put them in the dishwasher. I am too tired to finish the laundry this evening.
About Bedtime
My dad was up like until past 11 or 12 on the night of I think Saturday. He went to bed around 9 or something or between then and 9:30 P.M. on Friday. My mom and brother went on vacation for maybe around a week.
Edited Video Rankings
I changed the *** on "Drink With Me" and "I Dreamed a Dream" and maybe others to 1 *. I am tempted to take them down.
Problem
So, saying that you are not very accomplished but are like loaded with meat because of where you're from, doesn't that make you a bad person? I mean, isn't it your responsibility to be able to either make yourself happy or treat others with respect, like those who are by themselves in a corner or living their life?
Movie
I had a pretzel, which was big, and an orange juice.
Before, I got a sandwich at a healthy restaurant and a smoothie there, which was pretty plain, watery|icy.
Before, I got a sandwich at a healthy restaurant and a smoothie there, which was pretty plain, watery|icy.
Movie
Les Misérables
I went to the bathroom before and after. During, I'm pretty sure I went 4 times. I didn't miss most all of what I anticipated.
I liked how the little boy seemed so strong and seemed to exemplify the common desires of all.
I also liked how the chorus women developed.
I wonder if the women in it knew why they didn't sound like those German art songs, you know, kinda like a horn or the sorta fuzzy sound that I bet a lot of more European singers sound like, though more playful and seemingly not classical, more rebellious, though I believe now they are accepted. I heard a lady like that from Russia, have it recorded from iTunes radio. At least, I think she's Russian.
I went to the bathroom before and after. During, I'm pretty sure I went 4 times. I didn't miss most all of what I anticipated.
I liked how the little boy seemed so strong and seemed to exemplify the common desires of all.
I also liked how the chorus women developed.
I wonder if the women in it knew why they didn't sound like those German art songs, you know, kinda like a horn or the sorta fuzzy sound that I bet a lot of more European singers sound like, though more playful and seemingly not classical, more rebellious, though I believe now they are accepted. I heard a lady like that from Russia, have it recorded from iTunes radio. At least, I think she's Russian.
Something Funny
If I was going from my American side, why would I think that I had inhibited myself to be European like thinking oh but I have heritage from out-of-the-U.S. anyway?
Old Music
So, when did like those space things come out? I'm listening to A Clockwork Orange from 1972.
I like the 4th movement from "Pomp & Circumstance."
Now, I'm listening to Beethoven's 9th and I know everyone loves this. I used to find it really different. Now, it sounds kinda old and techy.
Ah, yes!! 3D It's very marchy. It sounds in perfect sync. It's perfect music! ;D
If you don't know about this movie, my dad told me about it when I was 7 or 6, I think, if not maybe even 5? Probably 6. It's about being tortured to music you love, like being changed. It's supposed to be really big. A lot of people in school started talking about it awhile after my dad told me, and it became overrated, tacky, and trashed, through the years, like everyone knew it. Then, people talked about it like you were a nigger.
Wow, it's like a swing music. Hm, must be modern German or classical German. Did you know well that the Classical period ended with Beethoven, who started the Romantic period? I know Back is Baroque and Mozart is Classical.
I like the 4th movement from "Pomp & Circumstance."
Now, I'm listening to Beethoven's 9th and I know everyone loves this. I used to find it really different. Now, it sounds kinda old and techy.
Ah, yes!! 3D It's very marchy. It sounds in perfect sync. It's perfect music! ;D
If you don't know about this movie, my dad told me about it when I was 7 or 6, I think, if not maybe even 5? Probably 6. It's about being tortured to music you love, like being changed. It's supposed to be really big. A lot of people in school started talking about it awhile after my dad told me, and it became overrated, tacky, and trashed, through the years, like everyone knew it. Then, people talked about it like you were a nigger.
Wow, it's like a swing music. Hm, must be modern German or classical German. Did you know well that the Classical period ended with Beethoven, who started the Romantic period? I know Back is Baroque and Mozart is Classical.
This is a bit different from all the modern English we've been getting. It seems different from the organ music I'm used to and like, though. I always thought it sounded retarded, like cut off, rhythmic, nice and simple to follow but well-orchestrated.
Wow, something just totally clicked. It reminds me of French, now.
Wow, I can totally elaborate on the same feeling.
I had a German foreign exchange student, and Germanic things were popular and there were foreign exchange students from that side of Europe, when I wa 16 and 17. In college, the voice instructor was obsessed with German and lived there 20 years with her husband from Harvard, though their singing was plainstyle and annoying. They seemed to really take to me though I'd been strict on. I took a group voice class all year, the 2nd semester being Italian. It was actually the official voice major class because I did Music Education, stated it upon entering. Before wanted Composition and auditioned for Voice, too.
Also a big thing was to try to act German. I guess in and out English has been woven in in experience, exposed, though, like I remember for instance seeing this attractive English girl at New Year's with a thick, sleek frame, not too tall, bleached smooth hair. I saw a girl or more like this on TV lead people through a house, too. I've seen other English people, like on Science videos and when my brother watches TV, people not that healthy. Tim Burton and Johnny Depp lead the whole English French thing. It seems Tim Burton can understand French. Tim Burton did English. All hail, Tim Burton! 3D
I know a lot of people were anti-English anti-everything German, but I was accepted as perfect for all cultures. It's just something you can try to do. I guess I was lacking some meat.
Hm, this music isn't too long in the main exciting part. So, I'm not rocking through it all this time. It's kinda in the background.
Problem
So, you think I get mad because I think people will make fun of me for being nice? No, that's why I don't take it back and why I'm afraid to say I'm just taking out my anger safely and utilizing my blog. If I had to say who it was to, probably I wouldn't. I'd go and do something else, instead. I mean, yea, I was mad, and yea it seemed like something that came up.
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