How I'm Feeling

I seem to have had a bad day, was at school all day.  I found out how to get back in the voice class.  I guess I have to go back, tomorrow.  I want to go shopping for clothes for theater, like shorts and shirts, though today it was strangely cold.  I liked my long socks, but I need shoes for Improvisation.  It's just that I'd be there all day tomorrow, but I need to get it done ASAP and the transportation wasn't answering.  I mean, I'll just sleep with my umbrella.  I'm tired now but not going to bed just yet, today, probably should eat something!

My Day So Far

I went to tennis. Health, 2 hours, with exercise, is full. A big, bright-haired theatre girl from Chicago was in the car, and I talked the whole time, had class with Ginny. Got $50 of supplies. Phone running out some..

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Problem

Now, my left eye|s are getting blurry because of my ear and the stress.  It's like having a headache with the stress, but the inside of my head doesn't ache.

Also, I need a gym bag so maybe may not work out today.  I'm not really looking forward to staying around all day today.  I might have to go back Wednesday with money for books.  I don't have a lunch bag but want the cancer 1 at Publix, though for some reason I don't think my dad got it if he was there.  My food is not perfect because my dad went to Costco.  I feel like I can't sense my environment and am a bit bewildered at my eyes.  I'm tired and guess I won't get much sleep, have to dry my hair and then I guess just pack up my makeup and go.

Problem

I left my Debrox open.. it was leaning over and I thought the top was on!  It was stuck in a crevice I noticed.  It made a loud noise, and my ear has a pimple, can itch, feels like stingy, and is plugged.  I may have to go to the doctor.  It feels like this ear, my left ear, is getting bigger.  I felt normal, before, though.  It just feels more plugged now.  I used the better earplugs when I took my bath.

So, I guess I'll just have a nap or no nap and sleep at school.  My mom said to use the gym, myself.  I mean, I can sleep on the bench and probably will wake up by myself.  I need a louder alarm, too.

I had a funny feeling about why my ear plugged up.  It feels like I can only hear through 1 ear!  Too bad about the pimple, but right away I change my ear plugs each day.

I have to cook my fish, pack the crackers and veggies, pack the money, hm no paper and pen..  Also, my dad didn't get me a recording device.  =[  I also don't have money for it.  I have my camera, but it won't stay on that long, I know.  D;  I mean, no, I'm not gonna listen to the class alone.  I was gonna use it if I needed it.  It's hard to think with my ear plugged, too.  My wounds are getting better but still sting.  I'm feeling more put together with something to look forward to and a nice teacher..  In the summer, not sure if she's teaching, probably, but I want to do tennis, and organ..

Helping Someone

There was a thin, blonde, blue-eyed boy with a buzz on the side of the road who asked me for a smoke and then for 50¢ and I gave him $1 50¢.  He was on a bus to the port.

Backpack!

Back

I returned the webcam and got $24 back.  I got an ice cream bar.

My dad was supposed to get me a lunch back but didn't.

Shopping

I got like 9 bottles of nail polish for @ $7 and 1 $4 for $50, 1 @ JCPenney, the rest at Sears, a great place for nails, but they have lots of cheap nail polish..  There was this lady there who said go see the lady in the nails.  They both had an accent.  Then, she said to go check out in the clothes.  So, I have like $50 left, and I don't want to go to McDonald's anymore, but I mean I'll go there for fun.  I'm bringing my food to school, not sure what I'd buy there.  I mean, if I get hungry.  It shouldn't be that big a deal.  I mean, I can eat at home.  My breakfasts aren't really all that big, but it's not just flakes.  Flakes are good, used to like, er, those frosted wheaties.

Ate

Breakfast
5 pieces of maple bacon not cooked much, put together
2 packs of cheesy grits

lunch
sandwich with honey cold cut ham, garlic and herb with lemon dressing, and long lettuce
cold water

I took my vitamins each time, not sure when I took my heart pill 2nd time nor if I did.

From eating at McDonald's and the new tennis sneakers, I feel kinda strong?  I'm running outta money.  I think I spent ...

Shopping

I also got long sleeved Angry Birds girl pj shirt, fuzzy girl Angry Bird and love pants, Angry Birds angry black bird hat with muff covering, blue rain boots that are really tall, lots of other things, a towel, mat for bathroom, mat for bathtub, white|cream knit gloves and felt scarf, black hat with muffs, slim laundry basket for bathroom, cheap basket for laundry, probably more important stuff, Ocean like Iris Spring set of 3 possibly blue bath soap, my 2nd Fructis gel the 1st being curly, a ionic cancer pink hairdryer that worked wonders, some blue-tinted hair bands with other colors but no gray though I found I have gray when I exercised before, the towel is black with a flower pattern I think sewn on shiny my 1st special bath towel, tall fuzzy boot slippers for the house like plush fluffy wearing them now making me warm and squeaks when I walk, though but doesn't flip flop like my mesh plastic Asian pink shoes my mom got me maybe 2 years ago...

Shopping

At CVS, I decided to get the webcam which doesn't work and so will return it when I go back to McDonald's or somewhere else, a lock that has 4 directions for $10 all @ the same anyway, the straightener for $10 (funny there was 1 with light pink and 1 with darker pink) though I have 1 that works for me that dries I found, cheese and crackers, SpongeBob SquarePants sanitizer with a rubber connecting thing, and at the mall needed to get 2 hand cleaning things with like $1 or less glow holders, Wonderland body wash (already got acne grapefruit body wash with matching facial cleanser,) and a scarf and mittens though it's not cold now, just was a few days.

Figuring It Out

Oh, so, you're happy I'm not that happy, anymore.

I guess I need to get some hair gel.  I have curl scrunching gel and a little other gel left, can ask my dad for more, if I don't feel like going anywhere.

The Ghost

It was kinda wispy, like rippled.  I just got a hair straightener.  There was 1 with light pink and 1 with a darker pink.  They were thin and cheap.  I am saving our money.  My dad only gives me $20 at a time, now, and my mom doesn't give me $100 a month.  They stopped when I bought like a bunch of ballet videos cause I had none, you know maybe 3 and some books etc., supplies maybe.  I was totally like feeling so bad, and it wasn't a mental disorder|etc.  Like insane..  Maybe I just felt bad about doing bad in school, but over the summer I mean it was possible.  I guess it was that I was incapable of lectures and reading history, which is longer than what you read in high school or what I read in honors non-"advanced placement," not sure about other classes, probably the same there.

Problems

So, Helena Bonham Carter is a big complainer and thinks other people who complain should be hurt.

So, I need help.  At CVS, a black lady sorta was rumbling through some things and made my left boy sack feel for once like sorta pieced apart with an outline.  She acted like she could hurt me but no one else, like other people just keep going to cover, like they're hurting themselves for being mean but trying hard.  I don't believe in this.

Also, there's this boy at Orlando Ballet who looks kinda like how I pictured my son, but I am not sure if I'd really want my son to only be like that.  He was really short and seemed like a pimple but was really cute with golden brown fluffy straight smooth hair, you know, looked English.  He had the ballet so down and had so many parts, A Midsummer Night's Dream.

Shopping

My webcam was from 2009 and incompatible with Windows 7.  Logitech.

So, the other 1 should arrive Jan 7 - 10.

I got a webcam. 3I

link

$4

Product Description

Position this cute webcam in a convenient place, then enjoy video chats with friends and family! The built-in USB + Microphone 'Y' cable plugs into a USB 2.0 port and a 3.5mm mic jack on your computer. Adjust the focus by twisting the lens. Easy Plug & Play installation, compatible with Windows XP, Vista, and 7. Height: 4", 6 LEDs for Night Vision.

Cold at CVS

I'm at CVS and I'm cold.

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The Poor

Orlando is poor.

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Problem

Tim Burton probably would really not be serious that my mom has glasses and think she was bound to.  However, most people wouldn't agree.

I just realized that it was like my mom didn't have fun in this country, and people who read it will say I'm spewing negro.  That's what's not right.  Kids have been doing that since Johnny Depp.  I mean, she sees my dad, all the time.  The woman doesn't necessarily work.  What is it with my dad and money?  I mean, we're not the poorest.  Are we really that poor?  My dad acts like my mom doesn't provide him with food, but he also complains he's too fat and doesn't want to eat and doesn't work out on his own.  They actually rubbed in a lot that I didn't want him to.  They thought maybe I liked him to give me attention.  Why do you go off into bullshit thinking that's okay!  D:'  I MEAN OKAY THAT THEY THINK THAT!!!  WHAT ARE YOU A PIECE OF SHIT.

Dream

All remember well now is the end.  I was in a room.  I followed a lady with thick but more detailed features, like a big pointing noise, and brunette hair into a room, like in a sorta college-business world.  We were with other students like that.  It was a big deal.  I got my hot dog and bun.  There were even burned buns I saw later.  The other buns were near the teachers.  There was like some stuff, like a big box kinda high in the middle I guess filled with ice water.  I had to pay I thought $1 and 30 cents but turns out 25 cents.  I put it in the box.  It was the wrong of 3 boxes, 2 similar, like white and rectangle, kinda tall, cardboard.  I asked where to put it and found it.  Instead of washing my hands by them, I washed them in a big sink in another part by some other kids, kinda in the middle of the 2 groups.  It had a big sprinkling thing and 2 kinds of soap dispensers.  I had to use the foam 1 that spit it out.  So, also, coming in, I saw they were injecting a tube of some kinda maybe light gelly stuff to their wrists, a shot, and I guess we were all getting shots.  It was kinda dreamy, like an apartment complex with trees.