Problem

I JUST FOUND OUT YOU'RE ALL A PIECE OF SHIT OBSESSED OVER MY DAD FOR NO REASON JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE JEALOUS OF WHAT I HAVE AND MY MOM IS NOT TECHNICALLY ALL EUROPEAN.

Problem

So, what, are these annoying whiny insults coming from Ginny Kopf talking to my parents or is it someone else?

Problem

Yesterday, when I got back the 1st time, there was a fat lady with a skinny head in front, fluffy dyed hair.  She was tilting her head sarcastically because I don't think I should tell people I missed "Supercalifragilisticexpalidocious."  You know, every time.  I could hear it loud and clear from the stalls.  It had just ended, so I saw them lined up.  I was annoyed because there's no way I could sit there and not have an insulting thought come to my mind hit hard.  It's just what happens.  I really don't want to do that, remember???  So, she tilted her head and made me think of my mom's nose being stupidly smooth like a slide like a triangle!  Oh no, that's not okay.  I be that thought is floating above her head.  And then, her neck popped and I think it still freaks my mom out.  I felt my mom doing something with her nose, too, and I'm not sure what happened now.  It doesn't seem okay, to me.  The problem is she's so sorry for other people and thinks you should make a big deal out of stuff like this, when it's not really what you're supposed to pay attention to.  I don't want to say this every time much less have to remember nor that I will.  I won't.  I mean, that's that.  You won't say it every time you list what plays or musicals you've seen.

Family Sides

I just realized my dad's side of the family has always acted like they hate me for their side, maybe because his sisters are younger, and my mom doesn't like try to make me unsuccessful because of it.

Back

I watched Mary Poppins and am back but tired and dirty.  I had a jumbo hot dog for $7, but it's not like a long hot dog.  I also had a triple fudge brownie which tasted like candy and even like a nut, like chocolate sorta cool, light tan nut, for $3.50.

So, I got up and came back at the end of "Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious" (didn't have to look up the spelling.)  I had to go to the bathroom.  Then, I think I left again to change my female thing.  I had already come in late from eating.  I tripped and almost broke or did something like stretched my ankle on the dark, thin stairs, to the last row.  I was pretty fine.  I had to limp but not always.  I went back to the bathroom and changed my female thing with my mom, who didn't want to go back though we had to sit down.  The 2nd time I came back they were doing "It's a Jolly Holiday With Mary," apparently an ending.  The 2nd time we got back had another coincidence.  There was maybe some coincidence.  I know once I moved and I knew what the man, a fat man, was gonna say, and I think he knew I'd knew ... I mean I moved just like the word he was about to say and it seemed I made the move before he did.  It sounded the same.  So, I walked well back.  Then, we left after the bows quickly.  I saw a girl wearing hot pink and black stripes and tripped on my other ankle from a curb, which I've often hit, especially at church.  It hurt a little, but I was fine walking on both legs.  However, I accidentally hit another curb and had to start limping.  I came home and fell asleep.  My ankle started to hurt so much.  Now I have to hop on 1 foot.

I had a creepy dream.  There was 1 where I was hanging around trying to get in maybe Ballet I and Voice.  Finally, I saw Ellen DeGeneres, and she was tall and put, vaguely, her arm around me.  She looked like me, her chest.  I wasn't having fun hopping, so she picked me up and I kept piling higher and I later realized maybe she was kissing my foot.  I had another creepy dream but forget.

I thought of going to the ER, but I really don't think they'd do anything to me.  If anyone knows, let me know.  It feels like it won't go dead forever.  I mean, yea, I might get tired waiting at the hospital.  They might give me medidince but shouldn't be too bad, though it may affect me adversely enough, as it has.  It seems it will take a few days or week.  I guess I will just hop around.  I have a cane from home.  It might be too much money to get crutches.  I guess not, but I'm not sure where my dad'd get them.  I wanted a wheelchair, but it seems crutches work.  My ankle is stiff.  Too bad they don't come to your house.  I guess they'd want an X-Ray, though I don't think I broke a bone.  Anyone have any idea of what's going on?

Problem

I just thought of putting a thick dagger in my mom.

Problem

I'm feeling stressed with my ear hurting, but I guess eventually this pain will also go away.  The n word thing made my life so uncomfortable....  Before, I wasn't getting the right food, didn't like being around my parents.  :|

Problem

I left my Debrox open.. it was leaning over and I thought the top was on!  It was stuck in a crevice I noticed.  It made a loud noise, and my ear has a pimple, can itch, feels like stingy, and is plugged.  I may have to go to the doctor.  It feels like this ear, my left ear, is getting bigger.  I felt normal, before, though.  It just feels more plugged now.  I used the better earplugs when I took my bath.

So, I guess I'll just have a nap or no nap and sleep at school.  My mom said to use the gym, myself.  I mean, I can sleep on the bench and probably will wake up by myself.  I need a louder alarm, too.

I had a funny feeling about why my ear plugged up.  It feels like I can only hear through 1 ear!  Too bad about the pimple, but right away I change my ear plugs each day.

I have to cook my fish, pack the crackers and veggies, pack the money, hm no paper and pen..  Also, my dad didn't get me a recording device.  =[  I also don't have money for it.  I have my camera, but it won't stay on that long, I know.  D;  I mean, no, I'm not gonna listen to the class alone.  I was gonna use it if I needed it.  It's hard to think with my ear plugged, too.  My wounds are getting better but still sting.  I'm feeling more put together with something to look forward to and a nice teacher..  In the summer, not sure if she's teaching, probably, but I want to do tennis, and organ..

PROBLEM

So, my mom seemed to get mad at me for something that supposedly Ellen DeGeneres would agree with.  I figured the n word thing is why I don't trust her jokes.  See anyone happy around, lately?  No, there is no point.  Also, I already decided I don't want to be tacky in the 1950s.

I'm rather disturbed and overly taxed.  I thought of some violent things.  Not like realistic, which I have to not do..  I 1st got upset at Nell Burton because I also got a message from Ginny Kopf via my mom.  I'm disturbed she thinks she's so good just because she did the Disney voice since the mid-1980s.

I'm being flooded with insults, for some odd reason.  I'm tired of going through this person's BULLLSHIT.

I also got mad at Ellen DeGeneres for thinking she's something because it said that I wasn't good enough racially, which is BULLLSHIT.  She keeps thinking she's cooler, and she keeps thinking she's gooder.

Problem

Why is my mom so wild?  She is like an animal like my dad.

I got the idea she told the 2 dance people at Valencia, "I didn't do it."

It's like she doesn't really want to talk to you.

Family Trip

My mom and brother just got home from a trip to India, taking a class. They look so solid and feel so good and said it was so cold. Their skin is a darker shade.

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Problem

Let's just shovel Ellen DeGeneres out.  She's listening to my dad and said my mom was bs.  She thinks that being good in some way means you have fun and say you're crap.  She thinks it means something too that I put her name in my shit.  Well, I didn't want you to make me think my mom was a negro.  I don't want to play your game like this.  Ooh, does that tie in with some message that you think means something?

Ooh, I didn't know what to say.  Isn't that why I'm posting online?  Why are you attacking me?  You're just racist and don't deserve anything and will probably be hurt.  You'll find you made some mistake and get mad.

Scheduling a Trip

So, I'm scheduling to go to Valencia today or tomorrow.  It'll probably be tomorrow morning, like my mom said.

Problem

Why does Nell Burton look like kinda like sorta clumpy, like she's put together?  It's supposed to be that she's fat like her dad, who was thin before after being on swim team in college.  That's funny, my brother isn't fat, anymore.  He was only a fat baby and chubby toddler.  I had to suffer the side effects of my dad and the race of my mom.  So, then she looks kinds like a patchwork doll, like her mom.  However, she seems kinda irritated from her dad being American, like her mom didn't let her be American.

I feel kinda bad because I went online and started off fat but got thinner.  We moved, and I was thinner even more but got fat quickly, didn't want to leave the house and didn't end up doing exercise videos because I hadn't before and it didn't come to me and I wished I didn't have to maybe, not sure.  Now, I do a little at a time.

I guess the other argument is that everyone has problems.  I mean, people have had problems since 2006, though.

Problem

Tim Burton, you can't rub in to the world that Helena Bonham Carter is pretty and my mom is ugly.  Why don't you like leave me alone in that light?

Also, why do you think the world stops because of you?

Why are you so like backing away like every little thing will hurt you?

I thought you stood for something.  You didn't do shit.

Problem

I don't think my mom wants to be in glasses at her age.  I'm not sure what her problem is with Tim Burton.  Helena Bonham Carter has money so probably doesn't need them..  It was something to do I know with that he apparently did art and wanted to say that like everyone else has to do something that's like worse than him and then he depended on his swimming maybe to give him the artistic stamina.  Hm, I did that with singing in college, I know, and probably it enhanced my art.  I did gymnastics hand in hand as a kid.  I got glasses at 9, and I blame the kids at school.  Also, I suddenly had lots to copy from the board that year, so I blame that, too.  Too bad that was so far my favorite teacher.

About Bedtime

My dad was up like until past 11 or 12 on the night of I think Saturday.  He went to bed around 9 or something or between then and 9:30 P.M. on Friday.  My mom and brother went on vacation for maybe around a week.

Problem

GO AWAY YOU PIECE OF SHIT

You're just being a nigger and treating me like a nigger.  You're a piece of shit you can't hold in your shit.  You're just a piece of shit.  Go b*** your b**** and ***.

And leave me alone for "what came up."

WHO GAVE MY MOM GLASSES?  What's so cool about it?  It looks suspicious to me.  I don't have to be hurt by my dad.  He was threatened to be arrested, and I'm trying to have a successful relationship but am getting that Ellen DeGeneres is antsy.  I am not sure of the truth in her actually doing it just like this.

Being "European"

So, my mom thinks I should do what I'm supposed to but doesn't seem to know why I seem like sickly but not like in a precious way but precious in a tacky way.  Why is my dad kinda fat but not like gruff?  Is that such a problem?  Why was he like that?

Hm.. Maybe, Americans are just exaggerated.

Problem

So, people are trying to take my, er, attractive or something personality away because my mom isn't technically all Caucasian.  I'm pretty sure I'm in step and I shouldn't lose my good qualities altogether to gain ones that are not as attractive.