Wow, people are mad at my race. That's not right.
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
A Bad Feeling
I get the feeling people are mad at Tim Burton for psyching the world off music. Also, didn't Johnny Depp lead a new trend? Tim Burton, whether or not he "knows it," has, in some way, been snotty sucking up to older men hurting younger people, trying to "be" bold and valiant like he "sees" Ellen DeGeneres. He made or supposedly in others's eyes made new fans in the inevitable mold of Winona Ryder because he's so romantic about how you feel about his presence. The answer is the answer. Why is he even sticking his nose out of L.A. to begin with! That doesn't necessarily mean we can't move around. I'm not really mad, but you think I am. Yes, I'm mad about if this is true, but I don't think it's really entirely true. I think that it's other peoples's fault, like the schools for not providing an environment where we can interact and learn things like music at some time, like maybe after school, because some singers do ballet and some singers also know piano. Well, most singers probably don't know piano well, but a lot of musicians do... Too bad not that many people are that entertaining. '}:) I wonder why people think because I'm mixed I don't have any authentic talent. That's not true. I can be very entertaining. I just like to spend my time having a normal life, too. "What" did Tim Burton really do? He probably plotted with our parents. He won't tell us. I don't think our parents did everything. Maybe, he's just like sorta submissive. Maybe, the world did it. I won't accept that Tim Burton did nothing. HA HAHA HA HA. You think that's funny. See, he likes you. So, why does Tim Burton have to feel warm and fuzzy and get mad he thought of that? You people are violent about the authenticity of singers. I guess it'd be dangerous if you weren't talented, in a good way.
Problem
Why are Tim Burton and Ellen DeGeneres so violent? Do they have a psychiatric problem? That's bad. I'm not gonna rub elbows with unattractive shit for my race.
Soft Joints 3)
I just stretched out my fingers over the door like they were a lily frog. See, it looks more joined, thick limbs, soft joints. 3)
Race!
So, the Chinese are European, and so that means the real Asians are the Vietnamese, the Tais, and the Koreans? Well, there's this other place nearby, those mountains between China and India.
Talk to Me
Why do people like Tim Burton and my dad not want to talk to me as a European nor think I have like Florida culture in a good way?
TV
I just watched Chloë Grace Moretz and Bette Midler on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," Bette Midler from early 2010.
Why am I settling like I'm from Florida? From watching TV? Why didn't I get the total shock? Is my blog worth its weight in goold?
Why am I settling like I'm from Florida? From watching TV? Why didn't I get the total shock? Is my blog worth its weight in goold?
Problem
My thing was that I wanted to just kinda keep going not running into trouble, like finding I couldn't make it. Wonder if anyone could jump to that conclusion. Probably. That's a good thing. Funny, though, I didn't think of that on my own.
Being Attractive
I just watched Selena Gomez on The Princess and the Frog in December 2009. I mean "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."
Okay, I did gymnastics and baton. Why would I be unattractive? After I quit, I losened up and looked very European but didn't seem well-versed, like doubled over in fat. It's been a painful process. Supposedly, my problem when I quit was that I was too intellectual, but I was in choir and piano, so. Why do we have to do so much gymnastics to get into symphonic music and know how to play the piano? I started at a good age but was told I was late but fast. A good memorizer and at playing by ear and later a good sight reader, even, probably from being too tired from homework to practice. It was freaky..
Also, can we buy "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" episodes? She now puts them on YouTube. I'm sure she doesn't care, but she could use the money, though I doubt she needs it. I guess I should look, now. ;D Well, I hope she sells them. What about the 1s on her site, now? I don't really think it's illegal, but it's become like it's like that because of YouTube. So shoot me. Or take them down. Or post it online where everyone believes it. I mean, if she sells them, why would I not watch them online like I hope she doesn't sell them?..
So, I wish I could do the ribbon in acrobats for a waist workout, though I don't know just how much movement they do with the waist.. Also, my dad would drive me there or I'd take a bus each week. I wouldn't mind posting I go there. I mean, what, is someone gonna stab me as I load the bus and get caught?? I never realized that they would get caught and therefore would not do it.
Okay, I did gymnastics and baton. Why would I be unattractive? After I quit, I losened up and looked very European but didn't seem well-versed, like doubled over in fat. It's been a painful process. Supposedly, my problem when I quit was that I was too intellectual, but I was in choir and piano, so. Why do we have to do so much gymnastics to get into symphonic music and know how to play the piano? I started at a good age but was told I was late but fast. A good memorizer and at playing by ear and later a good sight reader, even, probably from being too tired from homework to practice. It was freaky..
Also, can we buy "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" episodes? She now puts them on YouTube. I'm sure she doesn't care, but she could use the money, though I doubt she needs it. I guess I should look, now. ;D Well, I hope she sells them. What about the 1s on her site, now? I don't really think it's illegal, but it's become like it's like that because of YouTube. So shoot me. Or take them down. Or post it online where everyone believes it. I mean, if she sells them, why would I not watch them online like I hope she doesn't sell them?..
So, I wish I could do the ribbon in acrobats for a waist workout, though I don't know just how much movement they do with the waist.. Also, my dad would drive me there or I'd take a bus each week. I wouldn't mind posting I go there. I mean, what, is someone gonna stab me as I load the bus and get caught?? I never realized that they would get caught and therefore would not do it.
Georgia
Georgia is moral, but it doesn't let you be like standard nor fun. I don't believe it's that rich and soily.
Intriguing
I noticed a funny way I'm getting mad with this background. You know, it's unavoidable by any person but could have been decided knowingly. Like, whoever caused it, maybe something like this would have to happen. Get it?
Problem
Why should I listen to simple details of people mad in German because of Johnny Depp. They seem to have all left the building in jealousy out to hurt everyone who isn't white. I feel in a daze. It's been 7½ years. Why are you so worried something will happen? Isn't it because of how you present yourself? We all have problems. I know people want to pay back, but you shouldn't worry about accidents, just premeditated majority feelings. You can't just say I hurt you and no one else will hurt you. I mean, I risk dying. It's true. I could even be injured because of this. Like, I got the idea that I wasn't some big thing, so maybe I can't feel joy and should sit here and think I'm just 1 of a kind. I think Tim Burton would jump in and say I wasn't white. Why would that happen? Most people don't really do that and just claim that people can tell and I have to do it. I don't have to be a tub of lard because of my dad. That's not an issue I wanted to be bad. I wasn't helped, in time. I should be able to figure out something in life where I will be accepted if it's a racial issue I didn't know about, like that. See, I grew up thinking that I got my mom as a person and my dad's race. You probably are upset that I care about myself.
tags
Dad,
Johnny Depp,
Mom,
Posts Which Permit Commenting,
Problems,
Race,
Tim Burton
Problem
So, people should be punished for who they are and not what others tell them to do. I mean, why do I have to say oh I must be a different person with different people. I grew up with people saying that's just "not." If it were, I shouldn't be hurt. I mean, I am sitting alone in my room! Now, people don't care what I say. They just wanna see my dad get mad. Can you believe it? I know you think it's okay.
Also, Ellen DeGeneres thinks that she can just give others problems with their parents. Maybe, in this case, she has nothing to say. It sounds like she picked it up in L.A. Like, she wants to say, "but you did something before." I don't think that's the animalistic tendencies of her homeland where I dwelled, not in the city but in the locale. So, it isn't acknowledged. It's sorta like the city by New Orleans closest to where I live across the lake. No, it's not my roots. I moved there when I was fully formed, just was able to develop a little more. I don't like how so many people my age are like that. I mean, I was short and then got tall. I guess I'm different in that I was very short but not like a midget.
I wonder why Johnny Depp is so pieced together, maybe because he was a teenager in Florida and also a kid here. He seems like he also wanted me fat. So did Ellen DeGeneres. *BEEP* They're saying I didn't do something, that I have to be like a robot with no aura. They seem to be able to have an aura. Also, lots of people do what they think they said..or what did I say? I never actually hurt anyone, and I wouldn't do it on purpose. I mean, some kids weren't raised right and for some reason feel like acting a certain way and then feel bad. I really don't like that, that suggestive feeling people of the 80s have.
Also, I can want attention from them. If they think I shouldn't, particularly thinking of the cross of Tim Burton and Ellen DeGeneres, I forget. Ah yes, why would they be worth something? Didn't I just say something like that? So, you know what I mean. What else, now? Do you think I'm your *** machine? Why are you so unskilled at dispersing attention? You are so antsy.
Also, Ellen DeGeneres thinks that she can just give others problems with their parents. Maybe, in this case, she has nothing to say. It sounds like she picked it up in L.A. Like, she wants to say, "but you did something before." I don't think that's the animalistic tendencies of her homeland where I dwelled, not in the city but in the locale. So, it isn't acknowledged. It's sorta like the city by New Orleans closest to where I live across the lake. No, it's not my roots. I moved there when I was fully formed, just was able to develop a little more. I don't like how so many people my age are like that. I mean, I was short and then got tall. I guess I'm different in that I was very short but not like a midget.
I wonder why Johnny Depp is so pieced together, maybe because he was a teenager in Florida and also a kid here. He seems like he also wanted me fat. So did Ellen DeGeneres. *BEEP* They're saying I didn't do something, that I have to be like a robot with no aura. They seem to be able to have an aura. Also, lots of people do what they think they said..or what did I say? I never actually hurt anyone, and I wouldn't do it on purpose. I mean, some kids weren't raised right and for some reason feel like acting a certain way and then feel bad. I really don't like that, that suggestive feeling people of the 80s have.
Also, I can want attention from them. If they think I shouldn't, particularly thinking of the cross of Tim Burton and Ellen DeGeneres, I forget. Ah yes, why would they be worth something? Didn't I just say something like that? So, you know what I mean. What else, now? Do you think I'm your *** machine? Why are you so unskilled at dispersing attention? You are so antsy.
Problem
I will not listen to others saying I should listen to my dad's mistakes, like that when I have needs I should like make myself feel bad for others. I think I'm polite when I can, but sometimes it actually matters. I mean, I didn't like take away someone's food.
Problem
I was gonna say something but forgot. Then, I thought of something not very important. I'm highly insulted of my Gramma and Aunt 1 thinking oh pulease I can do something and make you mess up without knowing it.
Problem
What is Tim Burton's problem? He should settle down and accept what other people think and not be so unaccepting.
Problem
So, my mom and brother went somewhere. My dad came in and bothered me. He thinks I deserve it. He moved to Orlando and started being suggestive because he's jealous of Johnny Depp and set me up to do badly in school and then got mad but didn't tell me so I couldn't "fix it" or make him back off right away. I don't believe others want to hurt me, and other people think you should know by the time you're 18. I'm 26. I should have known by 18 and also hits me is to know when I'm 21, when I should have graduated.
I guess my mom's secret is her pleasure supposedly in not making me European but not hurting, supposedly that other parents do to their kids, like that the kids didn't do it. I don't think most people like in Europe quite do that. It might depend on who the other parent is. I'm sure that's true. I heard stories told of like ½ Indian babies with dark skin and eyes. Well, 1 I remember.
I don't want to listen to Ellen DeGeneres. She doesn't seem white. I feel she wants me to live life like everything is literal, like anything I knew, that I think I learned in a learning environment (I just heard her react) is not cool today, though I'd probably pick it up anyway, like maybe from somewhere else, just because. Anyway, I can't really say that I wouldn't learn it later, like posting online. I don't want to punish myself, I mean. I think you are supposed to learn these things in school but not in class. I mean, that's what adults do. You talk about it with other people. You don't live life on a screen. You're supposed to talk about it at work, too. I know she does. I won't listen to her ideas. Like, what's it called, punishing yourself, but some other word. Also, it's about her being right. Tim Burton thinks if you like her you're bad because he thinks she has to claim to be perfect because she's famous. HA HAHA HA HA. Well, I hope she accomplished some good feeling or figured out something good. I'm not into piecing things like they're Silly Putty. I don't want the blocks to fall. Already, I tried watching The Triplets of Belleville and have experienced under his unfair influence that it doesn't mean anything. It used to mean a lot, but over the years, for some reason, under his extreme influence of the world, it means like nothing. I don't know if it will ever mean anything to me, again. Tim Burton thinks I was bad and deserve to be punished for my accomplishments, that I'm "like everyone else." The fact is I did nothing bad and that no one is perfect. I didn't do anything to that movie. There's nothing related. If there is, it didn't come up. I like art, and I worked on it more than most people. I'm not gonna sit here and listen to the idea that maybe we're not supposed to dabble in things and like torture myself for being told I was like an attractive artist. This is stuff that is understood in Florida... Also, I will not listen to his logic of a culture he isn't even open to. He thinks he can just step right in and be mean to me. So, in Florida, logic like this is known, and you can't tear it down because you grew up hooked on pleasure. I shouldn't have to say what that could mean. That's something else everyone knows. Pleasure does not mean the fact that that indicates the only opportunity you can feel good. It's kinda off on a limb because the language is limited and there are probably ways of going into it. Hey, he doesn't even write, and neither does Ellen DeGeneres.
I guess my mom's secret is her pleasure supposedly in not making me European but not hurting, supposedly that other parents do to their kids, like that the kids didn't do it. I don't think most people like in Europe quite do that. It might depend on who the other parent is. I'm sure that's true. I heard stories told of like ½ Indian babies with dark skin and eyes. Well, 1 I remember.
I don't want to listen to Ellen DeGeneres. She doesn't seem white. I feel she wants me to live life like everything is literal, like anything I knew, that I think I learned in a learning environment (I just heard her react) is not cool today, though I'd probably pick it up anyway, like maybe from somewhere else, just because. Anyway, I can't really say that I wouldn't learn it later, like posting online. I don't want to punish myself, I mean. I think you are supposed to learn these things in school but not in class. I mean, that's what adults do. You talk about it with other people. You don't live life on a screen. You're supposed to talk about it at work, too. I know she does. I won't listen to her ideas. Like, what's it called, punishing yourself, but some other word. Also, it's about her being right. Tim Burton thinks if you like her you're bad because he thinks she has to claim to be perfect because she's famous. HA HAHA HA HA. Well, I hope she accomplished some good feeling or figured out something good. I'm not into piecing things like they're Silly Putty. I don't want the blocks to fall. Already, I tried watching The Triplets of Belleville and have experienced under his unfair influence that it doesn't mean anything. It used to mean a lot, but over the years, for some reason, under his extreme influence of the world, it means like nothing. I don't know if it will ever mean anything to me, again. Tim Burton thinks I was bad and deserve to be punished for my accomplishments, that I'm "like everyone else." The fact is I did nothing bad and that no one is perfect. I didn't do anything to that movie. There's nothing related. If there is, it didn't come up. I like art, and I worked on it more than most people. I'm not gonna sit here and listen to the idea that maybe we're not supposed to dabble in things and like torture myself for being told I was like an attractive artist. This is stuff that is understood in Florida... Also, I will not listen to his logic of a culture he isn't even open to. He thinks he can just step right in and be mean to me. So, in Florida, logic like this is known, and you can't tear it down because you grew up hooked on pleasure. I shouldn't have to say what that could mean. That's something else everyone knows. Pleasure does not mean the fact that that indicates the only opportunity you can feel good. It's kinda off on a limb because the language is limited and there are probably ways of going into it. Hey, he doesn't even write, and neither does Ellen DeGeneres.
Problem
I will not listen to Tim Burton's logic if he already changed his life to focus on being mean to certain people, like that I don't deserve to get attention from people in Hollywood online in secret. My life is already ruined. Look, he's jealous for Nell, but Nell is Latino. That means that she's mean and racist to the Chinese. Look, I'm not totally worn out. Stop telling me that I'm like perverted, as an echo, like if it sounds like I think I'm cool just because I'm Chinese and not totally "privileged." Like, maybe my house isn't nice but isn't like unkept.
Solving the "Problem.."
Hey, didn't Tim Burton inflict people he worked with I don't like? He must be *beep* I hung out with lots of people, and I made my way up. I wonder what he plans to do. He isn't open and isn't solving his problem about working in the world nor developing the surreal. I just don't want to go into things like a plow. I already am machined into logic. That's a Florida thing. You don't wear yourself on selling yourself. Your brain doesn't just keep going like that, neither. That's really shit. I never was popular. I am not like walking up to people. You know what this means..
Problem
Tim Burton stopped pretending to post to me online, and Johnny Depp made it seem like I had to keep up. There were like 300 posters in turn posting all day. I was supposed to answer with my non-Pro account.
Also, I don't want to hang out with people I don't like, instead. I'm not an old fogy.
Also, I don't want to hang out with people I don't like, instead. I'm not an old fogy.
Psychiatric Understanding..
Why is Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter preaching me bullshit of stuff I already know better than them? They don't even follow the rules of not hurting others psychiatrically. They don't even give a bullcrap.
I will not accept it.
I will not accept this bullshit. Every time you are mean and a curse word sorta burbles in my brain, you insult someone I care about.
Eliciting a Response
Tim Burton is slowing down because of the n word thing. That elicits a violent reaction. He's just playing around with young people like Johnny Depp thinking he can prevent people from outbursting later and won't go into it in steps, like "sliding" into it. He's so weird. He can't like repeat things. He, I guess, huffs and puffs, to live. At least, I found Ellen DeGeneres. She is online every day and does her show. It's a very interesting show and probably the best. }:D
Hollywood Today
What do you think of Tim Burton not directing Les Misérables? He probably would just doesn't want to because he thinks he can ditch me for the n word thing because he's not strong and was involved, like Ellen DeGeneres is weak around people older than her in relation to what younger people do. She's submissive and wants pleasure from them. When she was younger, she probably wasn't open to ever getting it. Now, is the time. What, you think I'm speaking nasally? Anyway, it looks funny, now, like if Tim does something it'll be offensive. It's a fact, I didn't say I'd *beep* him, literally, and who would, anyway? What's the joke hinted in the song that guy sings, "head on a silver plate?" That sounds like him. He seems embarrassed. I mean, think of the suggestion. I know he's popular with young people because he's white. Supposedly, people who are white deserve what they have and more. People who are like me don't deserve what they have, people think, the idea that they've accomplished deserving to be acknowledged, like that they are right. Would you listen to Ellen DeGeneres? She just wasn't involved. She's famous with interests like him. He's a good guy. I don't really know why he got worse and worse. It seems like because you aren't submitting to some decision now for some reason and you're not famous but people are hurting your opportunity. So, what do you think about Ellen DeGeneres ^weakly^ "not finding her opinion" because of what I already stated. You know what I'm talking about. Also, do you believe in the mistakes of the past as being valid forebearers of the future, like we're waiting for someone white to cough it up before other people can live? Did I just hear a gun blast a bomb up in the air? You weren't supposed to be doing this, like all this stuff, including the point in mind of focusing due energy on being racist to singled out individuals.
Media
It seems that especially more famous and good people think they are suddenly wary of if you should post singing videos online. I didn't do it at 1st partly because I thought you weren't supposed to. I didn't want to post myself singing Christmas videos. I guess I was waiting to set up and learn more opera. I just posted online and didn't really sing. Finally, my life was so bad I just had to start. I mean, look around, "The X Factor" or that other game show or maybe that was it. I mean, it's all about signing on YouTube and posting yourself singing. There's no banner in the sky. I heard that you just post and - well I feel as though I "heard" this, at least - wait and see they'll just take it down if you're not allowed and then you'll know. Otherwise, it's your responsibility to take the opportunity. It only makes sense because, well you have to sing if you want because it's like breathing if that's what you want and it's what's going around apparently... because you're allowed to record yourself. I used to wonder and ended up thinking it was funny not to record myself, never thought about actually doing it enough when I sang, which wasn't hours a day. Everyone sings. I guess I liked stuff like musicals and old hits, like "Total Eclipse of the Heart" and learned to like others, as well, which were familiar, probably heard it when I was 1 or 2 or so. I know I used to hear these songs, and then they stopped and I heard them and they were familiar. It was like I heard them a lot. It was very surreal, maybe I can describe it sometime. So, anyway, you have to record yourself because when you sing for a performance you don't get the rights. They'd just say, "Turn around." So, the question is can you give other people recordings of you singing karaoke? Well, yes. You probably just can't sell it unless you got permission. So, you could contact like the company and get permission if it were necessary. I mean, no one should kill you if you don't do that. I used to give my friends tapes of compilations of my favorite songs but wouldn't give out whole CDs. My aunt let me borrow stuff. So, I did it on a tape. I did it to 2 friends maybe twice to 1. So, that was supposedly illegal, to compile your favorite songs on a tape. To me VHS was just when I was a kid. I guess DVDs came out when we moved to the New Orleans area. It wasn't even a big deal because you can't go to a certain space in the DVD. So, see if you can figure out why you shouldn't post yourself singing. I mean, it's important. I see you don't really want me to sing. However, it's like our responsibility. I can't really stand it. I really have nothing else to do. I don't need to ask a company to sell it on iTunes, but I mean I guess I could. How will I practice? Who will listen to me? What's illegal about a get together online? I don't know if I'm allowed to perform it live, but I probably am. I'm guessing like there are karaoke events.
Disapproval
Something I disapprove of with Ellen DeGeneres is getting mad if we learn about the world outside of home.
My Looks
When I 1st got my contacts, I looked so detailed and recorded it and it still happens to be up. I don't think I can take it down. I stayed up singing all night and day and called my grandma to read the Bible like we did each night. She said I shouldn't do that, had been acting meaner to me because of the n word thing but then acted like it was okay, like everyone else, like Tim Burton. So, then, my face wasn't ever as detailed. I got "another present." Why would I change because of just talking to her like that supposedly for a mistake?
Public Performance
I uncovered a secret. If you need to dance, you shouldn't even worry about technique, like don't put 1 down.
Reminiscing
Do you remember when you were 1? What about 2? What about 3 and 4?
I remember things were very like surreal and heavy-weighted. I'm "from Fort Lauderdale" because I was born in a hospital there, and I lived in several cities around the area, including I remember now 2 beaches, don't remember which 1 was on top. I was created at 1, and that's the 1 I like and my favorite place I've seen. The only other thing I could say is the beaches between Fort Lauderdale and Miami or between Miami and Key West and possibly the Keys. I think it was because of my mom being like open to things "not being white|'Caucasian.'" Her strength was doing gymnastics in high school. She did ballet as a kid. She was #1 in the country. However, I think the most advanced thing she did was probably something like a back handspring, which I've never done, though I was the most advanced for not being on a team, which was something I never saw, until I quit and then went back to get a workout, so-to-speak. She's also very short and said she was about the thinnest, like very thin, though she wasn't as thin as a starving kid in Africa and wasn't shaped like too crookedly or some way hard to describe though she wasn't badly crooked..., and the fairest, "like a 'blonde.'" My dad has black hair and blue and yellow eyes. My mom's skin used to seem deeply gray, but she made it yellow brown tan. It was dark sometimes, before, too. It was even darker than me. I got to be a fat baby, and then my skin was white, but I wish I wasn't so fat. I don't know why I was so small, but I wasn't always so small to my mom. She said my eyes were dark blue, but I saw in the light they looked gray blue. They even looked colorful blue. However, I was born with wood hair that looked dark like more light blackish and maybe dirty from far away, and my eyes got to be a nice wood brown all my life with sparklies in it. I remember when I was 3 that they were like crystally and all put together, but I think I was upset about the color with my race. My eyes teetered with green, so that's why it was sorta a more colorful brown. I'm sure you could have deep brown or maybe a nice reddish black, though I've not looked into a black person's eyes. My understanding was that Latin Americans also have dark eyes. I guess Africans don't have maybe crystally eyes. They're into milk and blood. I guess Native Americans have sorta a more grayish brown. By the way, are they like separate from Europeans? That must be a big question. I don't really want to think they're Asian, neither. They're not Middle Eastern, but they would fit a clan life more. However, they are the wild tribes of the world, and the Africans are the wild beasts who learned to speak and may have had a language, as well as written language. Something about Native Americans seems primitive. It's interesting when you meet mixed Native Americans and people with a little Jewish, which it seems so many people have in the U.S. I don't have proof, but I noticed a trend that could be possible. It seems like the darker Europeans, like the non-Russian Eastern European and Southern Europeans, have a more pure race in the U.S. I'm not sure how many people have thought of this. No one ever told me.
Ah, just got back from the restroom and said bye to my family.
So, anyway, like it was like a big boom, like all these balls, all this fuzz, all these dreams, you could so sense. I just don't know why it was connected as I moved and don't know why I grew older and it wore away, like it was for toddlers. Like, I'm thinking of when I was, like, 4. The dreams, often, involved, like things of the water. My eyes just lit up as though I were still in "Fort Lauderdale." Like, I guess, like Titanic. It was about civilized life among the existence of the "romance" or "nostalgia" of the water and, I guess, the beach. So, I lived along coastal Florida at the bottom and top. It did muddle life in connecting to others. I don't really know modern people from other areas. It was just a feeling. I also felt the 80s and things kids should feel but not like the good outdoors. We didn't walk along the beach. We did sometimes but not often. Like, there was no hillside to go to. We didn't really walk around the dust. We did walk around like every night and go home on a bus and have Chick-Fil-A and piña colada [without alcohol.] I felt the racism creeping in, as I tried to enjoy what others rushed by. I can't say that my mom was better off, but she did live in Pennsylvania, briefly. I'm not sure if it was New York. They lived in a huge building that could have been used for dance. It was kinda like a big empty studio that was 2 stories high. Maybe, there was like a balcony or something. I think it was a ballroom. My dad worked 3 jobs, including photography and, of course, like many men, truck driving. I mean, he was also a paper boy, when he was little, guess he was lucky, too. His mom somehow got milk to him all the time and worked when his littlest sister was born and had the older sister take care of her. Both sisters were younger, and his mom had miscarriages, I think maybe of all boys, though the supposed story changes. I don't believe that is common, and I don't know what happened. I guess you should know my dad's youngest sister had her daughter cut open. I was small. My mom even took a class where she took care of babies before I was born. Like, I think she changed your diapers! Haha. So, no, don't even think she's like bad like a black person. The Chinese weren't treated like niggers, back in the day. She is not Vietnamese|Japanese. Funny, it seems the Chinese don't have to have squinty eyes. I don't know that Southern Chinese are bad. What my dad provided was the memory of like technology and modern culture and maybe the aura of the hippie|flower generation. He is a hypnotist. His sister is, now, too. He also used to always talk about how he was in a band in his basement. I don't know why he doesn't do that upbeat stuff, to this day, but it influenced my life and I find it interesting. My mom was also in a gamalan at school, maybe played the angklung, which I mean is something to think about or listen to. She also used to tell me about shadow puppets. It wasn't "that I was better" but that I had to like respect it but that 1 I wasn't from there and 2 my dad wasn't of Indonesian heritage and I guess he was around.
So, the experience wasn't really so easy, and I wasn't really so comfortable with myself. I got upset. I guess kids used to get upset in that sorta way that needs to be nurtured, maybe by themselves, at least in my case. My mom was a guide. My dad was a comforter to me, maybe a guide to my brother. My brother clung to my mom in a selfish way. I did in a shy way until I got a little older and then my brother was born. I wasn't like ************. I was just shy. It was because of my race, though, so that's kinda lame. It's more of a memory, like I guess thinking of the possibilities living by New Orleans, thankful I lived right across the bridge. It was a really big deal how close you were. My roommate was a health nut and homeschooled. My problem with Britney Spears is her being from Mississippi. My understanding is that people like her grew up more gung ho. I guess that fits the description of how Ellen DeGeneres turns out certain generations. I guess I sorta find it that it's more nostalgic, like with the idea of like maybe you'd eat fish there. I'm not from Mississippi. It's so funny, I don't know anyone else important from there. Chloë Grace Moretz is from Georgia, and that's really something totally different, very aggressive. I happened to go to a campsite around Atlanta somewhere, by Cabbage Patch Land, with my aunt's inlaws. I was left in the town for like 6 hours or maybe just 4½ hours. Also, it was Christmastime. So, I don't know anyone else just from there. I connected more to Miley Cyrus. She's from Nashville. Well, the New Orleans area isn't modern. It isn't preserved. It's more preserved than most places, but I don't know how I'd know that. I can't even feel modern culture. I lost my tie. I was only 12. All the clothes were different. There was really nothing worth it, nothing cool. Nothing slick, sleek, sloped, nice materials, sorta that late 90s gung ho feel, you know? I know, though, that I have problems, too, but I'm afraid I have the idea those people "will not make it in Hell." I don't really know that I "have problems" like sorta big and concrete, but it seems like it and I was fuzzing it. So, I'm not sure what that is. I just hope I don't really get like a problem. I'm not that fascinated with that I said that. It's not my responsibility that things there are lazy. It's the Big Easy. I'm not sure what things would be like elsewhere, probably an adventure in L.A., though I'm glad I moved to the New Orleans area, instead. It did seem far away, but I mean it was across the lake, and there's not much across the lake. I guess I was fascinated with like the reptiles and stuff there, like in Florida, which is more fascinating here, though they don't all know it in every way there. I guess they have a lot more fun, but I wasn't acclimated to the area and messed up too much. I was more shriveled up. I'm not sure why you can't learn from me what I picked up living in Florida. I guess you have to understand 1st that I thought you understood that clothes were more ideal to be sorta simple and thick and sleek. Having a curve or flare but not like a dandelion is the thing. I hope you get the idea. I guess that would elicit quite a lot of emotions considering before stuff like that wasn't known to me. I don't really know what kind of dresses nor casual dress shirts they wore. I know I had tacky dresses and that right after I was too old they made such cute things. However, the adults made us feel that we were emitting hatred to younger generations because they would probably be more feeling than us. I have a feeling they burned out. I mean, people older than me have specific stereotypes in grades, the 2 grades older than me. They're considered really young, and it's a big thing. So many other people are like kinda ugly or they don't have a stereotype.
I remember things were very like surreal and heavy-weighted. I'm "from Fort Lauderdale" because I was born in a hospital there, and I lived in several cities around the area, including I remember now 2 beaches, don't remember which 1 was on top. I was created at 1, and that's the 1 I like and my favorite place I've seen. The only other thing I could say is the beaches between Fort Lauderdale and Miami or between Miami and Key West and possibly the Keys. I think it was because of my mom being like open to things "not being white|'Caucasian.'" Her strength was doing gymnastics in high school. She did ballet as a kid. She was #1 in the country. However, I think the most advanced thing she did was probably something like a back handspring, which I've never done, though I was the most advanced for not being on a team, which was something I never saw, until I quit and then went back to get a workout, so-to-speak. She's also very short and said she was about the thinnest, like very thin, though she wasn't as thin as a starving kid in Africa and wasn't shaped like too crookedly or some way hard to describe though she wasn't badly crooked..., and the fairest, "like a 'blonde.'" My dad has black hair and blue and yellow eyes. My mom's skin used to seem deeply gray, but she made it yellow brown tan. It was dark sometimes, before, too. It was even darker than me. I got to be a fat baby, and then my skin was white, but I wish I wasn't so fat. I don't know why I was so small, but I wasn't always so small to my mom. She said my eyes were dark blue, but I saw in the light they looked gray blue. They even looked colorful blue. However, I was born with wood hair that looked dark like more light blackish and maybe dirty from far away, and my eyes got to be a nice wood brown all my life with sparklies in it. I remember when I was 3 that they were like crystally and all put together, but I think I was upset about the color with my race. My eyes teetered with green, so that's why it was sorta a more colorful brown. I'm sure you could have deep brown or maybe a nice reddish black, though I've not looked into a black person's eyes. My understanding was that Latin Americans also have dark eyes. I guess Africans don't have maybe crystally eyes. They're into milk and blood. I guess Native Americans have sorta a more grayish brown. By the way, are they like separate from Europeans? That must be a big question. I don't really want to think they're Asian, neither. They're not Middle Eastern, but they would fit a clan life more. However, they are the wild tribes of the world, and the Africans are the wild beasts who learned to speak and may have had a language, as well as written language. Something about Native Americans seems primitive. It's interesting when you meet mixed Native Americans and people with a little Jewish, which it seems so many people have in the U.S. I don't have proof, but I noticed a trend that could be possible. It seems like the darker Europeans, like the non-Russian Eastern European and Southern Europeans, have a more pure race in the U.S. I'm not sure how many people have thought of this. No one ever told me.
Ah, just got back from the restroom and said bye to my family.
So, anyway, like it was like a big boom, like all these balls, all this fuzz, all these dreams, you could so sense. I just don't know why it was connected as I moved and don't know why I grew older and it wore away, like it was for toddlers. Like, I'm thinking of when I was, like, 4. The dreams, often, involved, like things of the water. My eyes just lit up as though I were still in "Fort Lauderdale." Like, I guess, like Titanic. It was about civilized life among the existence of the "romance" or "nostalgia" of the water and, I guess, the beach. So, I lived along coastal Florida at the bottom and top. It did muddle life in connecting to others. I don't really know modern people from other areas. It was just a feeling. I also felt the 80s and things kids should feel but not like the good outdoors. We didn't walk along the beach. We did sometimes but not often. Like, there was no hillside to go to. We didn't really walk around the dust. We did walk around like every night and go home on a bus and have Chick-Fil-A and piña colada [without alcohol.] I felt the racism creeping in, as I tried to enjoy what others rushed by. I can't say that my mom was better off, but she did live in Pennsylvania, briefly. I'm not sure if it was New York. They lived in a huge building that could have been used for dance. It was kinda like a big empty studio that was 2 stories high. Maybe, there was like a balcony or something. I think it was a ballroom. My dad worked 3 jobs, including photography and, of course, like many men, truck driving. I mean, he was also a paper boy, when he was little, guess he was lucky, too. His mom somehow got milk to him all the time and worked when his littlest sister was born and had the older sister take care of her. Both sisters were younger, and his mom had miscarriages, I think maybe of all boys, though the supposed story changes. I don't believe that is common, and I don't know what happened. I guess you should know my dad's youngest sister had her daughter cut open. I was small. My mom even took a class where she took care of babies before I was born. Like, I think she changed your diapers! Haha. So, no, don't even think she's like bad like a black person. The Chinese weren't treated like niggers, back in the day. She is not Vietnamese|Japanese. Funny, it seems the Chinese don't have to have squinty eyes. I don't know that Southern Chinese are bad. What my dad provided was the memory of like technology and modern culture and maybe the aura of the hippie|flower generation. He is a hypnotist. His sister is, now, too. He also used to always talk about how he was in a band in his basement. I don't know why he doesn't do that upbeat stuff, to this day, but it influenced my life and I find it interesting. My mom was also in a gamalan at school, maybe played the angklung, which I mean is something to think about or listen to. She also used to tell me about shadow puppets. It wasn't "that I was better" but that I had to like respect it but that 1 I wasn't from there and 2 my dad wasn't of Indonesian heritage and I guess he was around.
So, the experience wasn't really so easy, and I wasn't really so comfortable with myself. I got upset. I guess kids used to get upset in that sorta way that needs to be nurtured, maybe by themselves, at least in my case. My mom was a guide. My dad was a comforter to me, maybe a guide to my brother. My brother clung to my mom in a selfish way. I did in a shy way until I got a little older and then my brother was born. I wasn't like ************. I was just shy. It was because of my race, though, so that's kinda lame. It's more of a memory, like I guess thinking of the possibilities living by New Orleans, thankful I lived right across the bridge. It was a really big deal how close you were. My roommate was a health nut and homeschooled. My problem with Britney Spears is her being from Mississippi. My understanding is that people like her grew up more gung ho. I guess that fits the description of how Ellen DeGeneres turns out certain generations. I guess I sorta find it that it's more nostalgic, like with the idea of like maybe you'd eat fish there. I'm not from Mississippi. It's so funny, I don't know anyone else important from there. Chloë Grace Moretz is from Georgia, and that's really something totally different, very aggressive. I happened to go to a campsite around Atlanta somewhere, by Cabbage Patch Land, with my aunt's inlaws. I was left in the town for like 6 hours or maybe just 4½ hours. Also, it was Christmastime. So, I don't know anyone else just from there. I connected more to Miley Cyrus. She's from Nashville. Well, the New Orleans area isn't modern. It isn't preserved. It's more preserved than most places, but I don't know how I'd know that. I can't even feel modern culture. I lost my tie. I was only 12. All the clothes were different. There was really nothing worth it, nothing cool. Nothing slick, sleek, sloped, nice materials, sorta that late 90s gung ho feel, you know? I know, though, that I have problems, too, but I'm afraid I have the idea those people "will not make it in Hell." I don't really know that I "have problems" like sorta big and concrete, but it seems like it and I was fuzzing it. So, I'm not sure what that is. I just hope I don't really get like a problem. I'm not that fascinated with that I said that. It's not my responsibility that things there are lazy. It's the Big Easy. I'm not sure what things would be like elsewhere, probably an adventure in L.A., though I'm glad I moved to the New Orleans area, instead. It did seem far away, but I mean it was across the lake, and there's not much across the lake. I guess I was fascinated with like the reptiles and stuff there, like in Florida, which is more fascinating here, though they don't all know it in every way there. I guess they have a lot more fun, but I wasn't acclimated to the area and messed up too much. I was more shriveled up. I'm not sure why you can't learn from me what I picked up living in Florida. I guess you have to understand 1st that I thought you understood that clothes were more ideal to be sorta simple and thick and sleek. Having a curve or flare but not like a dandelion is the thing. I hope you get the idea. I guess that would elicit quite a lot of emotions considering before stuff like that wasn't known to me. I don't really know what kind of dresses nor casual dress shirts they wore. I know I had tacky dresses and that right after I was too old they made such cute things. However, the adults made us feel that we were emitting hatred to younger generations because they would probably be more feeling than us. I have a feeling they burned out. I mean, people older than me have specific stereotypes in grades, the 2 grades older than me. They're considered really young, and it's a big thing. So many other people are like kinda ugly or they don't have a stereotype.
All the Glamor
I like Johnny Depp fans. Tim Burton fans tend to be "lose goose." Ellen DeGeneres is a good backup. Johnny Depp fans from Europe are all the glamor.
More Issues
I wonder why people are so manic about what I have to be like because of who my dad is.
Also, why are people having their kids be suggestive to feel guilty because of "something I did" that wasn't bad. There are lots of issues, like that. I guess the big 1 was people finding out I didn't write someone insistent for awhile because I had more than 1 Facebook, but now I only have a select few "Friends." }:D
Also, why are people having their kids be suggestive to feel guilty because of "something I did" that wasn't bad. There are lots of issues, like that. I guess the big 1 was people finding out I didn't write someone insistent for awhile because I had more than 1 Facebook, but now I only have a select few "Friends." }:D
"Be Happy Be Happy Be Happy"
I realized my mom has to solve what my dad's 1st youngest sister does because he can control it, but like with his mom he can't.
Why don't some people want to be happy or not?
My grandma always said, "Be Happy." When I didn't feel like visiting her up north, she had me call her more, just because, but I didn't have to. She gave me a chain of beads that said, "Be Happy."
That quote is from The Little Prince, the musical.
Why don't some people want to be happy or not?
My grandma always said, "Be Happy." When I didn't feel like visiting her up north, she had me call her more, just because, but I didn't have to. She gave me a chain of beads that said, "Be Happy."
That quote is from The Little Prince, the musical.
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Aunt 1,
Dad,
Gramma,
Mom,
Posts Which Permit Commenting,
Psychology
Dad's Heritage
Why should a dad be able to say his kids deserve to be hurt? Like, he wants like the race of the mom, and he thinks there's logic that sparks that the kids don't deserve it. Ideas come up that that's what they deserve, that they don't deserve it. Like, maybe they just keep thinking in 1 path, like Americans. It's funny people from the South think they're more European and think they can not think in a straight line. That straight line is something incorrect. Europeans tend to do things the right, probably "original" way, whatever that means. Like, maybe Americans became bad? Maybe, Americans are poor, and Australians are criminals because criminals are rampant in Australia from, I know, England. They were shipped there. It's what they said in Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street (2007) by Tim Burton and with starring Johnny Depp alongside Tim Burton's "wife" and involving other cast from Harry Potter.
Adjusting to Others's Realities and Worlds
Why would you make yourself bad to please others? Why would you not believe in building yourself? Like, people say you were supposed to do something at like 1. What? I know I did gymnastics at 1¾.
Also, there is no such thing as getting mad at people for thinking too much of themselves or imagining they are someone else. Something will hit them, that they're not. I don't know why that would like be in your life. I mean, you are like other people in other ways. Also, there was the possibility something could have happened to you and the possibility something will. You also have dreams. It simply is a desire. It's based on the idea that you're something racially, as well. It's something you're supposed to do, and if you don't know otherwise can't get mad at it making others jealous.
So, about building yourself, people now think that you shouldn't do anything, that for children of Early Boom it's "done at one."
Also, there is no such thing as getting mad at people for thinking too much of themselves or imagining they are someone else. Something will hit them, that they're not. I don't know why that would like be in your life. I mean, you are like other people in other ways. Also, there was the possibility something could have happened to you and the possibility something will. You also have dreams. It simply is a desire. It's based on the idea that you're something racially, as well. It's something you're supposed to do, and if you don't know otherwise can't get mad at it making others jealous.
So, about building yourself, people now think that you shouldn't do anything, that for children of Early Boom it's "done at one."
Complaining About Money
Do you like people who complain about the middle class spending money on things they want, like, I dunno, like their kids, maybe they get government money? Isn't this all everyone is concerned about, like are you off a college debt?
What I Wish I Did
Year 1
1 English II - Gifted
2 Freshman Orientation | Civics
3 Biology I - Honors
4 Geometry - Gifted
5 PE I
6 Talented Theater I
7 Talented Art I
Year 2
1 English III - Advanced Placement|Gifted
2 World History (Honors?)
3 Chemistry I - Honors
4 Algebra II - Gifted
5 PE II | Health
6 Talented Theater II
7 Talented Art II
Year 3
1 English IV - Advanced Placement|Gifted
2 American History - Advanced Placement|Gifted
3 Physics - Honors
4 Advanced Math - Gifted
5 Free Enterprise |
6 Talented Theater III
7 Talented Art III
College|University
Loyola University New Orleans - Theater|Communications + Film
The Film minor has a video|directing class.
After School
Singing (Lessons?)
Graduate and work for Disney Junior @ Burbank. I guess I could get a TV show and put kids on it, but who wouldn't? Answer me that. Why hasn't this been done? What happened to Britney Spears? Don't forget about Christina Aguilera, but I think Britney Spears is the focal point. People are just amazed at Christina Aguilera's hair. Ellen DeGeneres looks like Britney Spears with white hair.
1 English II - Gifted
2 Freshman Orientation | Civics
3 Biology I - Honors
4 Geometry - Gifted
5 PE I
6 Talented Theater I
7 Talented Art I
Year 2
1 English III - Advanced Placement|Gifted
2 World History (Honors?)
3 Chemistry I - Honors
4 Algebra II - Gifted
5 PE II | Health
6 Talented Theater II
7 Talented Art II
Year 3
1 English IV - Advanced Placement|Gifted
2 American History - Advanced Placement|Gifted
3 Physics - Honors
4 Advanced Math - Gifted
5 Free Enterprise |
6 Talented Theater III
7 Talented Art III
College|University
Loyola University New Orleans - Theater|Communications + Film
The Film minor has a video|directing class.
After School
Singing (Lessons?)
Graduate and work for Disney Junior @ Burbank. I guess I could get a TV show and put kids on it, but who wouldn't? Answer me that. Why hasn't this been done? What happened to Britney Spears? Don't forget about Christina Aguilera, but I think Britney Spears is the focal point. People are just amazed at Christina Aguilera's hair. Ellen DeGeneres looks like Britney Spears with white hair.
Wah! D;
I have a pulsing like pain or sorta thing that's tending in my right ear. The pimple is harder in my left ear and feels like it's turned that side of my head into a dessert. Maybe 2 or 3 or possibly 4 times, it made it so it hurt when I ate. 1 or 2 times, it was very painful and seemed nearly impossible for a few days, like encompassing affecting me for nearly a week if not a week.
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