Used to Play Sports

So, when I started tennis at 11 with my brother, there was this place in the nation's oldest continuing city ... I'm from Florida myself and my mom is from Indonesia ... called Marsh Creek.  I thought we toured a landfill.  So, it was huge, a huge expanse, like a safari.  We like drove through like a highway to get there.  So, there was a little booth, there, too.  The courts were made of green sand, so when I moved I was really, really mad, though it was very athletic there, the area Ellen DeGeneres is from.  I lived in "Slidell," didn't remember thinking of it as a slide at all lately that I could remember until recently.  It's right across the bridge from New Orleans, actually.  The people at my school were adamant about Britney Spears, and people in my choir knew people who knew her and said she was such a sweet girl and that everyone was upset at "how she changed.."  She was considered really bad but not untalented..  I actually didn't watch her until I moved to Orlando.  She reminds me of Amanda Seyfried!  She sang in movie musicals and was just in a big 1 that is considered the most classical that exists, like an opera, haha kinda like The Phantom of the Opera.

So, anyway, I was busy but I managed to compete in tennis at the end more than once though only remember competing once, for some reason, but I think just the last 2 years, not sure how I did it those 2 years.  I didn't want to be on the team but taught some older kids to play and a girl from San Fransisco who was a lot bigger than me.  It helped her get in shape.  I think she made me seem a lot fatter.

So, about the tennis courts, then the white lines were made of metal with nails nailing it down on the sides.  I think.  So, you knew if you were out if you heard it.

So, anyway, Marsh Creek reminds me of the New Orleans Zoo or Lion Country Safari, teetering 2 areas I lived in Southeastern Florida.  I have pictures of me there and still have some from Katrina when I was in an experiment without being sure.  So, a marsh I think is the step above a swamp, you must have also learned in school, except I guess Florida has them, Northeastern Florida, the oldest continuing city in the U.S.  So, what it is is like water with really tall, green grass.

Talented in Sports

People think I'm dexterous, like a good volleyball server, a good soccerball kicker from early on, an adamant softball player, a good runner in basketball.

I am pretty accurate with tennis, not sure if I should have done it with my brother, but I should have.

Problem

My brother in Florida, in the Northeast, had too much homework.  I mean not enough.  We moved, and then he always had too much but wasn't as adamant as me, anymore, because we didn't move to the city, I think.  He was very caring, though.  More than in Florida, where he was more distant and, guess he'll never say this and I need to have a conversation at some point, energetic.  Hey, that sounds like E DeGeneres.  I think I stopped being energetic when he was born.  So, then, he got tired, though he did martial arts twice a week.  Maybe, the grappling wasn't as hard.  He did tennis lessons but didn't make the team in Orlando.  He takes tennis in college.  He'll be taking an advanced course.  He got really mean here but mostly to me.  My parents approve of it but then change their crap! minds.  D8  Maybe, I just don't care about them, too.  I do not accept the fantasy that I'm in trouble racially.  He also grew his hair long, here.  I know he's off track from where he was when he was 3.  Maybe, Pre-K wasn't cool.  He kinda reminded me of Ellen DeGeneres, in Southeastern Florida.  Hm, I went to school there, too, but I think I was smart(er.)

Problem

So, why didn't you tell me to exercise or give me keys to the house sooner or get me different food?  You could have brought home wraps or something!

Problem

I don't think anyone wants my dad to be mean to me.

I don't see why that actually brings you pleasure and you're getting away with it.

No one can agree with his sorry ways.

...

Problem

Are there more Jews in the U.S.?

Problem

I noticed that I had an old dad and looked trashy, but all people can say is that he's old-fashioned.  Notice that people a long time ago had kids sooner.  Boys today are more modern.  He was 35 when I was born.  I fail to understand how he married old.  I mean, I guess, 2 years before.  So, that would be 33.  Kids my age with dads 33 when they were born had dads born in 1953?  Why are even some dads born in 1951 so annoying?  I know girls born then are cool.

Problem

Are you picking a scab with my dad?  SHUT UP.

How does my dad not fit the description of a good older dad with a younger mom?

I don't know why he got fatter.  At least he's a bit more put together.  I mean, compared to other men, he's not a clown.  I mean, he doesn't really look like old English.  I'd guess he was part German.

Problem

I KEEP GETTING ANNOYING MESSAGES ALL DAY.  DOESN'T ANYONE CARE.  I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS.

Problem

WHY DID TIM BURTON STOP BEING NICE AND MY DAD START ********* ME

*BEEP*

Problem

Why are you playing with how every page loads?  Stop acting like I don't have the right to use the internet.  To post on my blog and other social networking sites.

Also, why won't my dad stop giving me weird secret messages?  He's made my life uncomfortable.  He hasn't made me bad, though.  WHAT DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?  ARE YOU STUPID?  STOP HURTING PEOPLE.  NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU.  I'll put you in a cold, cold room and feed you SHIT.

Shopping

My webcam was from 2009 and incompatible with Windows 7.  Logitech.

So, the other 1 should arrive Jan 7 - 10.

Problem

I THOUGHT I TOLD EVERYONE TO STOP WASTING MY TIME TELLING ME EVERYTHING THAT MATTERS TO ME IS SHIT

I got a webcam. 3I

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$4

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Food Review

I found the smoothie at this McDonald's watery, no plain strawberry.

I actually just got 1 full order.

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Cold at CVS

I'm at CVS and I'm cold.

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Out Walking

I'm leaving McDonald's.

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Recipes?

What would happen if all the bad people had all the precise food?

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Rushing Pain

Tim Burton rushes through things and causes pain.

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The Poor

Orlando is poor.

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Not Listening

I'm not listening to people in Orlando who are modern with Latino blood. The apartment life is trashy.

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See you all, a little later...

I'm getting ready for a jog...

Mobile

Civilization

I saw a black guy on Classic Joke Tuesday.  I just found out or realized that colored people didn't have advanced technology.  When comparing to the Chinese below supposed tundra Russia, er dessert up north I guess, I realized that the sorta feeling of worth wasn't in it in the Chinese's eye to invent things like the microscope.

Late Boom boasted "there was 'no technology,'" remembering that their parent generation boasted it to the utmost, nothing else left in life in this generation or world.  Not sure about like there being meaning in things other than TV, or film.

Problem

I thought my earphones broke on 1 side, but I found it disconnected by the computer.  I also have a long chord going from the garage to another room but wouldn't think I need to nor should take the energy to check it, now.  So, that's the side where my ear hurts.  It feels kinda like tight in the middle, like I feel something there and like it is about to not just pop but explode.  I know I have more hard earplugs.  It should keep out more sound.  I figured the other ones "locked in moisture.." cleaned my ears more in the past few days.  However, I know that the rubbery earplugs make my ears hurt in this same way.  It's just that these 1s are more plugged.  Maybe, I need softer 1s.  The other ear is okay.  I guess, for now, I need to use the old kind.

Problem

So, I know, from watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," I've had to pay and felt kinda like a negro and wrapped up like an Asian, maybe because she gets those kinds of commonfolk on her show or like families with squinty eyes and projecting fat (ha ha.)  I'm sorry about that, though.  I know what it's like, unfortunately.  So, now, I feel like I'm in like something disgusting, white, and poofy, but not like disgusting as in just "dirty" but more "infested.."

Something That Happened

At the mall I was clumsy and the door opened loudly in the bathroom and there was an older lady with a young boy.

Also, when my dad came out, as I said, he passed the bathroom and I closed the door abruptly but knew I didn't hurt him but wish I didn't do that that time.

Facebook

I added a picture earlier: Facebook.

Problem

Can you believe people will say I'm coming to them for *** but not to Late Boom tweens?

Edit

I added a link to my profile photo: link.

New Facebook Cover! 8D

Facebook

link to photo

Problem

Why am I getting the idea like Ellen DeGeneres thinks hurting other people, everyone, is funny and that it doesn't matter because kids younger than her like to kid around?  Maybe she's *beep*

Ah

My right ear just popped.  It popped lightly..

Problem

So, you can enjoy nature no matter where you're from and not be bothered.

Also, why are you insulting me to stimulate me, you negro, every time I want to be happy?  WTF are you, you piece of shit?  Trying to make me mad?

Problem

People keep saying I'm wrong and like I have to convince them of some big thing.  They're shit.

I just got the idea from someone that like sometimes you're not really in a certain situation and you have to settle at that thinking.

Ow

I wonder if I need to go to the ER.  My right ear hurts a lot, and my left 1 has a pimple.  My head feels like it's growing.  I assume it's a pimple.

Edit

I added the link to that post.

Problem

"What" did my friends ever do for me, as a person?

Acting Weird

It seems that a friend I had made a toy from being able to watch Ellen DeGeneres as a kid.  When people talk about her, they seem to glow, like a princess.  Like, they say it loudly but don't want you to tell they feel embarrassed.

So, it seems that she wants to think that facts and what you do are the same thing and can change things.  She has older parents.

It seems Ellen DeGeneres is fighting and deciding to drop the ball and pretend my dad isn't good because Americans are crazy and want to say that you think you're "something you're not."  I guess you'd have to realize she's probably upset about her age.

Problem

Why now are people cutting in whereas before we were being generous to in struggling with thoughts of positivity like to the ends of the earth?

Being Perfect

So, anything a Late Boom girl says is right.

What do you think of this girl who is probably all English: link.  It seems like it's best not to mix with other Europeans.  I know Órla Fallon's last name was Carron and is French from Normandy not the Anglo-Normans, which seem to be what pervade Ireland, though no one talks about it.  The Anglo-Normans are Norwegian and maybe other Nordic countries.  I know in the U.S., I met a French blonde married to someone with a German last name.  She was so smart but didn't seem to think so.  I had a drama teacher from New Orleans with a French last name.  My 1st drama teacher I found is from where Ellen DeGeneres is from.  I met 2 other people from New Orleans who might have some very white ancestry who I liked, though 1 is gay and looks sick now.

I'm curious, so Tim Burton made England popular, but Helena Bonham Carter seems to admit she grew up with her mom, whose mom is Jewish and whose dad is Spanish and Jewish.  It's just people who have all 1 European ethnicity have so much to offer.  You know Kate Bush?  She's ½ English ½ Irish.  She had really nice parents.  She seemed more interested in modern culture and could fit in in England but isn't like a hose of bossiness.  She isn't the same, now.  She got really big, and people would think "that's something Christina likes."

Well, Ellen DeGeneres's mom's last name is Jewish, so maybe Tim Burton wants his kids Jewish.  Maybe, he uses them as a tool.  Hey, aren't I used as a tool to not look that good because my dad is old and my mom isn't technically just "white?"  People think all my accomplishments are just me being spoiled.  Did you know I grew up thinking the opposite, like that I did things I was supposed to and everyone else came from lazy, racist families?

Kids Who Think

So, why are supposedly Late Boom good, but Boomers make "kids" today think for themselves?  You know, Late Boom might claim that well "there was no technology."  You know, it seems like that people cared that they looked supple.  I think they wanted them to be actors, though.  I'm not sure what their high school was like.

Isn't that funny, "There was no technology" ... "but my parents had a boom in technology interest."

About thinking for ourselves, it's like everyone wants to be like Late Boom, but when you say you do everyone doesn't say so and then you find out later and it's a big deal with Late Boom.

Problem

What happened to the idea that you build yourself like I guess these days by posting on a blog?  I'm not sure, before, maybe it was like those movies and stuff.  Well, part of the thing is computers were gonna come out.  Today, computers is what gives you your social life.  Everyone knows to have energy you need a social life.  If not, I guess that means you're learning to think alone.  I never had a life like that.  Maybe, when I was little with my parents sometimes but not often.

The Big City

How "big" is "New Orleans?"  It's just across the lake.  The big city in Northeastern Florida encompasses the entire county.  I guess we didn't really live downtown.  That should be obvious, but I'm pretty sure it was nostalgic and urban.  I think I lived in a major city in Southeastern Florida but not by the bottom.  It's a big issue, I only see attractive people from the city.  I felt that not being from the city that we were not like included.  I guess that people from different areas have different lives.  Each high school had a different theme: sports, academics, arts (which was like everything) + the Catholic school.  So, you have to go to the high school near where you live.  I'm glad I didn't go to the academic one.  I guess the people from the private non-Catholic school a lot went there.  There weren't many like scholars at the Catholic high school.

Health

I think I'm going to start eating healthier, having salads like I did in college with more than lettuce but no tomatos.

Problem

It seems people don't like me because I had a black teacher when I was in kindergarten.  Maybe, I "used" her, but I know what a black person is.  She wasn't like bloated.

Feeling Better

Resting made me feel better.  So did drying my hair.  I don't feel as agitated and empty.  I think seeing little kids has been a good influence on me, like the boy in Les Misérables.

Nice Shower-Bath

I used my Alice in Wonderland gel from Bath & Body Works.  I already have acne gel, grapefruit.  I realized I needed real gel.  I even put moisturizer on my crotch after I shave.  Also, on my hands and forearms.  My left forearm caked up.

Ow

So, I have more solid ear plugs, but I don't think that's why my ears are hurt.  It is a little softer, noises.  It feels like there's water in my ears.  I tried to clean them more in the past few days.  They just hurt.

It feels like there's water in my right ear.  It makes it sorta tie up in pain.

Ah!

So, I guess I was lying down for maybe 2 hours or more.  A lot of thoughts passed through my mind like a puzzle.  I guess you'd like to imagine magical shifting, but it was just thoughts, kinda metallic like a pimple.  I even dried my hair.  I probably will dry my hair now.  I think I have a small hair dryer.

Problem

Why does Tim Burton want us to like spill the beans, like sorta maybe we go online but we don't really have to under his command, though he didn't say to.  I mean, there's a funny feeling, maybe you shouldn't be near the internet.  I think everyone should know it's safe and right to get a blog.  I mean, it was like it was 2005 and then suddenly in 2006 where I was everything was different.  The world seems different.  That makes me wonder about what it's like in different parts of the world, didn't see as many attractive people before.  I'm seeing like thin, supple kids with white hair, now, not necessarily the silhouette of a movie star but interesting, maybe not rough and tough enough, not perverted, not to say that they should have to know about that stuff all at once but maybe is good to know in a timely manner.

Exercise

I lost my 2-day rental but have more money.

I did 3 side sit-ups on each side.

I just did 4 on the right and 6 on the left.

I tried to eat more like Cracker Barrel.  The fat pills are making me thinner, natural and big up to 5 times a day.  So, I made sure I had tasty food when I needed, probably recuperating from my "dieting."

Problem

Why does Nell Burton look like kinda like sorta clumpy, like she's put together?  It's supposed to be that she's fat like her dad, who was thin before after being on swim team in college.  That's funny, my brother isn't fat, anymore.  He was only a fat baby and chubby toddler.  I had to suffer the side effects of my dad and the race of my mom.  So, then she looks kinds like a patchwork doll, like her mom.  However, she seems kinda irritated from her dad being American, like her mom didn't let her be American.

I feel kinda bad because I went online and started off fat but got thinner.  We moved, and I was thinner even more but got fat quickly, didn't want to leave the house and didn't end up doing exercise videos because I hadn't before and it didn't come to me and I wished I didn't have to maybe, not sure.  Now, I do a little at a time.

I guess the other argument is that everyone has problems.  I mean, people have had problems since 2006, though.

Dreams

I had 2 dreams before that were good I don't remember.  I was trying to think of rewriting them.

Ate

leftover hot dog on wheat bun with Heinz ketchup
Tyson's buffalo chicken strips (frozen) with jalapeño (Monterey Jack) cheese
Dill & Olive Oil Triscuits
baby round carrots & dill dip
about 10 asparagus's, though I didn't have a big enough top and it wasn't soft

I just had some crackers with dip|spread.

Ow

For some reason, my ears hurt, and I can feel 1 has a pimple.

I put cream on my bugbites.

I just had a pimple in each ear from the earplugs.  It affects your jaw, too.

Conspiracy..

So, I wonder if me having 2 subs at a gas station is what made me healthy.  The drink was grapefruit juice.  I also had a dessert.  Getting stronger but didn't shower.

Yesterday

I ate

2 Pieces of Beef Ribs, Have 1 More Left
Burned 1st Batch of Leaves in a Box

I had more French bread pizza before.

Woke Up

Listening to Enya

Lying Down

I may get back up.

Problem

My dad keeps teasing around claiming me not having perfect behavior because I feel really uncomfortable, like with my health, and don't know like to quit school or now have people being onto me because they don't want me to succeed ... I mean, he thinks that him feeling guilty is something that means I should be treated badly.

Problem

So, why does Ellen DeGeneres think she's tough for not thinking the world is touchingly magical?  Maybe, no one should watch her show.

She keeps teasing.  I do not want to talk like this.

Problem

So, why does Ellen DeGeneres like not take responsibility for torturing me in private when she seems to think it's okay?  Because if someone else tells her it's like immature, she'll believe it but not believe me and think it's my fault I have problems and sit there and wonder about what I've accomplished, like it wasn't meant to be.  I mean about torturing me, like sometimes I hear clicks and the page loads a certain way and it seems to happen often.  I get turned off like no one's in the room.  Things happen and then don't matter and we don't know the effect.

Problem

Hm, well, I got the idea supposedly you had to throw in 1 more message.  You think that the world is your shit.  Go tell the world, don't rub it in to me.

Well, anyway, this "message" is imprinted on me.  Go away, and stop telling me my "attitude" or adding extra things in my talking (which shut up about you) is inappropriate because I'm not technically all Caucasian.  Stop picking on me.  Should we bore into you in infancy?  You are just a machine without "a sense of wonder" thinking you are white in ways you aren't.  Look, I'm right.  You don't have the right to pick on just me and to treat me like I'm nothing "just because you know me."

Problem

I got threatened to associate something bad with something really, really important.  How can you just say that you're a genius to think of it?  I don't think I deserve it and don't believe that certain actions mean that I deserve it, like because I was supposedly incompetent.  You don't even know.  I didn't ask you to talk to me.  Why is it so important to be careful around people, usually, then?

Problem

I watched my old videos after the mental hospital a month and am guessing I am infested and unsure of what to do.  Maybe, I was infested in college.

Problem

So, I had fun getting food at the gas stations, but I have a feeling they were dirty places.  Maybe, I shouldn't get sandwiches there.  The dessert isn't that good.  The restaurants close at night, but they have the drive throughs opened.  I couldn't get them to notice me.

Problem

So, I woke up, and something different happened because these people are watching me for no reason in this experiment and want to get it out, but I don't want to talk in this.  I keep getting annoying sounds, all day.  My life is abnormal.  They're suggesting things that are kinda things you traditionally wouldn't suggest.

Hm, the top and back of my head kinda felt like a bunch of bumps like in that dream, I mean my brain.  What do you suppose is going on?  Is it because of this experiment?  Isn't that also the reason I ended up getting mad?  I think this is bad and unnecessary, guarding against all these things like we have to address bad things all day.  I'm not doing it.

I just went to think of my 2nd dream, and it's just brushed aside that an insulting tick happened.  Stop saying "I'm a 'bad' person."  Stop picking at me for getting mad at being hurt!  I don't want to be tapped into in private all day and certainly not in this way, which is bad..

Also, I got randomly annoyed in private just because I said something, then I just heard it was because I was Chinese, but I don't want to be Chinese and don't feel Chinese.  Please go away.  I was enjoying like the pristine aura of how I looked today with my lush curls.  Let me guess, you're drugged and too shy to comment.  Before, me being watched in private was like a gift, and now it's constant torture and the insistence that I "need" it.

Dream

I just remember my 2nd dream now.  I was walking around.  There were all these gross witches with small heads and like little plaques of things, sorta like gas stations.  There were buildings.  Supposedly, I had a left eye missing from a witch and walked around and escaped and went into the land of knowing, as opposed to the land of being nor the land of something else.  I ran across a Middle Easterner who wanted to do yoga, though it wasn't important, anymore, and she was like poor and not properly nutritioned and was on the floor looking up, a bit gross, and was kinda like saying stuff about like yoga and other stuff and then like closed her eyes.  She was in a weird position.  Then, I went back.  Other people were there and had to get off guard.  I was thoroughly disgusted as I woke up, and the head witch like made 1 other character that looked like her but was on my side have a face simply covered in little bumps even like in piles, just to get it out and exaggerate it as she got stimulated.

The 1st dream was good, hope I can think of it.

Back to Bed

Feel like a lunk.

I fell asleep thinking pleasant thoughts, along the lines of school.

Dream

I was standing in line to package some things, and there were about 3 people working, 1 my old choir director and organ teacher.  Someone filed to the other person knowing I wanted the teacher.  At the last moment, I addressed it, which was to her, maybe did it ... well, there were like a thick sorta bunched up package, a box, and maybe a blank more medium-big thick, white, rather plain envelope.  I think the tape was over the home address.  So, she left, had to, something to do with dying.

Dream

At the end of my dream, I was thinking I said, "Mom," in this place, realizing where I was, like a college dorm, with Ellen DeGeneres stationed somewhere, like a police.  I felt like a Venus fly trap behind my head.  So, like I was on the floor, trying to sleep, found a little sleeping bag and pillow.  Oh yes, I got the fly trap off.  I was thinking about trusting someone to make me healthy, upset realizing for the 1st time my mom got unhealthy when I moved.  Wow, my hands look dead.  So, I had been there.  It started I went there with 1 of 2 art teachers.  I went in a room, and she was outside.  It was bright and big, like a machine kind of place, kinda Disney-ish or toon-ish.  Something happened, there were monsters and she was being like killed but I guess was maybe a like ghost but in physical form.  I had to keep the lock turned a few times for a long time, maybe over a period of even nearly 5 minutes.  I guess then a knife formulated through.  I thought of someone hiding in a closet and thought of a happy little monster like that new caveman movie thinking of the story.  So, the bad guy didn't get the person out of the closet.  Then, I was in this big room with the other kids.  We saw a young version of Johnny Depp with little legs performing maybe on a guitar.  He was sitting in the room in the stands, but we were all looking at the display.  We might have interacted with it going to another thing, sitting on something metallic.  Then, I guess was kinda a long scene on the floor with us getting sleeping bags.  For some reason, it seemed dangerous.  It was like we could die, but we were there, like the 1 art teacher.  Oh yes, I was in a room and remember a fat fat lady with curly hair, kinda sweet.  She said she had Moore as a last name, and so did I, but I don't.  She went off down a hall.  There was a part I went to a bathroom that was yellowish, and I went into a stall and there was a toilet and then there were other little stalls and went in and it was pretty clean.

So, the interesting part was that like I guess it's funny Ellen DeGeneres was there.  It was like about if we were in a college dorm or at home and were getting in trouble for what it was maybe or I woke up thinking that.  I wasn't even in college, but I was thinking about it.  So, maybe you get the picture.  It's interesting, not sure I ever thought so much of Dad to Tim Burton, but I certainly equated him with that certification.  People have made me feel special.  I probably have had passing feelings like that in my life.

So, it was like a crabby sorta ghostlike force was attacking my head and about to kill me.  So, I pried it off, and I guess it was disapparating.  I was surrounded by like weight, though.  I forget what I was doing.  Maybe, it'll come to me.  I think it was like I was the best girl there or something, like I was behaving and played all these cards right.

Also, I was in the car with my dad and I guess there was like a pillow between us that was kinda like filling out the space.  My dad acted like he did something, and I kicked a bit sorta mechanically, which I've never done, and he looked hurt.  He passed me in the hallway, and I got kinda frantic and closed the bathroom door quickly, worried but knowing it wasn't my fault.  I thought it didn't hurt him.

So, it was nice to like, I guess, care about things, like that.  I think because it was so like deathly dangerous is why I thought of the word, "Mom."  I was with other girls maybe younger.  Not sure what ... guess they were all grovelling.

I guess that makes sense, ... I know I had filed in with a girl.  I guess I was feeling bad from the pizza.  I'm not sure who was in charge of this other room.  I think a lady, maybe a bigger lady, like the other art teacher.