My Day

I got on a block and jumped in a crevice with a chair and escaped a tall, I think blonde boy.  The blonde grabbed me!  3D

My Day So Far

I went to tennis. Health, 2 hours, with exercise, is full. A big, bright-haired theatre girl from Chicago was in the car, and I talked the whole time, had class with Ginny. Got $50 of supplies. Phone running out some..

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I'm feeling stressed with my ear hurting, but I guess eventually this pain will also go away.  The n word thing made my life so uncomfortable....  Before, I wasn't getting the right food, didn't like being around my parents.  :|

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I guess my dad didn't fix my TV, have to text him again as the reminder.

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Do you have any idea why I'm always mad and why I've been rushed?  I mean I had a good excursion walking outside, just wish I could postpone the trip to college, now, probably will sleep on a bench.  Also, my room smells dusty.

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Now, my left eye|s are getting blurry because of my ear and the stress.  It's like having a headache with the stress, but the inside of my head doesn't ache.

Also, I need a gym bag so maybe may not work out today.  I'm not really looking forward to staying around all day today.  I might have to go back Wednesday with money for books.  I don't have a lunch bag but want the cancer 1 at Publix, though for some reason I don't think my dad got it if he was there.  My food is not perfect because my dad went to Costco.  I feel like I can't sense my environment and am a bit bewildered at my eyes.  I'm tired and guess I won't get much sleep, have to dry my hair and then I guess just pack up my makeup and go.

What I'm Doing

My nail polish is drying.

Problem

I left my Debrox open.. it was leaning over and I thought the top was on!  It was stuck in a crevice I noticed.  It made a loud noise, and my ear has a pimple, can itch, feels like stingy, and is plugged.  I may have to go to the doctor.  It feels like this ear, my left ear, is getting bigger.  I felt normal, before, though.  It just feels more plugged now.  I used the better earplugs when I took my bath.

So, I guess I'll just have a nap or no nap and sleep at school.  My mom said to use the gym, myself.  I mean, I can sleep on the bench and probably will wake up by myself.  I need a louder alarm, too.

I had a funny feeling about why my ear plugged up.  It feels like I can only hear through 1 ear!  Too bad about the pimple, but right away I change my ear plugs each day.

I have to cook my fish, pack the crackers and veggies, pack the money, hm no paper and pen..  Also, my dad didn't get me a recording device.  =[  I also don't have money for it.  I have my camera, but it won't stay on that long, I know.  D;  I mean, no, I'm not gonna listen to the class alone.  I was gonna use it if I needed it.  It's hard to think with my ear plugged, too.  My wounds are getting better but still sting.  I'm feeling more put together with something to look forward to and a nice teacher..  In the summer, not sure if she's teaching, probably, but I want to do tennis, and organ..

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So, who would waste their time just hating on me for attention?  Someone who doesn't like to work-think, like who is spoiled and all about 1 thing that they're not supposed to do?  They must have quite a "culture shock."

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I have this friend who is just being shy dying her hair darker.

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I just realized I have this younger friend who keeps coming back with bs.

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GO AWAY YOU NIGGER AND DON'T BLAME ME FOR NOT GETTING A BLOG.

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Why do people like Ellen DeGeneres and Tim Burton give a fuck over kids with really old parents who are younger than you?  Ha.  WTF you think you got?

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Wow, people my age keep spouting bullshit to put me down.  Why the Hell can't they leave me alone, now?  OMG, what niggers.  I have no clue what their point is, guess they're just not that mature.

Problem

See, my whole purpose in everything I do is to say I'm as white racially as I can be.

PROBLEM

So, my mom seemed to get mad at me for something that supposedly Ellen DeGeneres would agree with.  I figured the n word thing is why I don't trust her jokes.  See anyone happy around, lately?  No, there is no point.  Also, I already decided I don't want to be tacky in the 1950s.

I'm rather disturbed and overly taxed.  I thought of some violent things.  Not like realistic, which I have to not do..  I 1st got upset at Nell Burton because I also got a message from Ginny Kopf via my mom.  I'm disturbed she thinks she's so good just because she did the Disney voice since the mid-1980s.

I'm being flooded with insults, for some odd reason.  I'm tired of going through this person's BULLLSHIT.

I also got mad at Ellen DeGeneres for thinking she's something because it said that I wasn't good enough racially, which is BULLLSHIT.  She keeps thinking she's cooler, and she keeps thinking she's gooder.

Getting Ready

It seems it's time to get ready for school.

Being Right and Saving Things for Later

Nell Burton is considered right because her dad is from L.A.  I don't know why his family is from Burbank, but all the broadcasting is there.  I guess she's saving it for later.

Helping Someone

There was a thin, blonde, blue-eyed boy with a buzz on the side of the road who asked me for a smoke and then for 50¢ and I gave him $1 50¢.  He was on a bus to the port.

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I'm mad at Ginny Kopf.  She didn't add me on my new Facebook.  I think I'm going to ask her in class to add me.  I dunno, maybe I'll I'm mad.  She thinks she's whiter than me.  What should I do?  Call everyone in the class a nigger?

The new thing of Facebook is you have to be someone's friend to see what they say - I mean all they say, it just shows random things from the past, now, not sure why.  They're just having fun controlling the world and really wish they did things differently before whereas before they forced us to think they were right.

The other problem is I like to change my profile photo..  }:]

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Ate

I had 2 packs of cheesy grits, a little bit of Great Grains cereal with milk that was left, and about 7 pieces of maple bacon stuck together not cooked quite enough.   Tropicana orange juice with some pulp.

Problem

No, I don't know anyone other than my little girl cousin, who is a conundrum, who is from certain areas of Florida with parents from up north.

Why am I drawing in my dad just to pleasure others, things that have nothing to do with me.  Why do people think I'm just fragile and immobile?  I know I was kinda like that at 1 point growing, but this is ridiculous.  I'd have gotten over this.  What, so I get no treat?

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I just really don't want Ellen DeGeneres to hurt me thinking I'm a nigger for stupid stuff.  I care about my comfort a great deal.  I'm also being alluded that the attention I get is to bonk me out.

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Anything Ellen DeGeneres lets a younger, white kid do, make sure you let yourself do.  If she tells you do to one of her many things to be more grown up, DON'T DO IT.  You deserve a funky life, too.

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So, who decided to or did it just happen that I got the idea that the crowd sees Ellen DeGeneres as leaning back in her chair squirting like a warm, gelly waterfull upward to the side?  I have a feeling that that would pretend to upset her.  I mean, I've been had to feel things of that nature but luckily have avoided it and don't really know about other people doing that, deciding to like these things.  I haven't read about stuff like this but would like to.  I mean, why would it be safe to do this?  I know, you think that it's unfair.  Maybe, it's just like what happened.  I just feel things are at a standstill now and that like it's some thing that passed.

Going to Bed

I guess I'll go to bed, now.  Creepy night.  People hurting each other before they think.

Let me add, watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" every day and before talking to my grandma each night doing a Bible reading, I stayed up all day and didn't eat and just sang for YouTube.  I got off the phone, had just got my contacts, and suddenly my face wasn't as detailed.  What bothered me most was that something like that could happen to me.  I think that it's not safe in the world to enjoy things.  People just don't like that.  I don't know why we're programmed to turn off.  I am also mad that Ellen DeGeneres feels the need to get back at you thinking you did something wrong in your life just to be fair with everyone else, which I think is something that niggers do that is stupid, like me thinking that I was good to be happy about my contacts.  See, my face was like developing such acute, precise expression.  It was like something no one else did.  I mean, other people can do it if they want.  I don't really look up to niggers like that.

Problem

Why is my mom so wild?  She is like an animal like my dad.

I got the idea she told the 2 dance people at Valencia, "I didn't do it."

It's like she doesn't really want to talk to you.

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So, what do you think about the turnout of things with Tim Burton?  Why am I cursing about racism?

My Day

I got 2 ranch wraps at McDonald's and 1 was fried, I know.  No ice cream, but I got some ice cream at a gas station.

Also, my left hand feels like it's about to rip from a cut I got that goes across a large portion.

Problem

You know, no one nice agrees with my dad turning on me.  I mean, I wasn't good to start off with.

Problem

Is that my next expensive message?  NIGGER.

Problem

Can you just shut up with your crap of combining extreme ideas?  You're stupid.  You're a piece of shit.  You're nothing.

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Why does Ellen DeGeneres keep kidding about serious things?  I already told you I'm not gonna let you just be mean to me.  What do you think I am, a piece of shit?  You think I'm just shit?

Family Trip

My mom and brother just got home from a trip to India, taking a class. They look so solid and feel so good and said it was so cold. Their skin is a darker shade.

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How I'm Feeling

My ear is feeling better but still has a pimple.  I'm not wearing my earplugs unless I jog along the street with cars.

Exercise

I did some core workouts.  I took a shower.

Something Cute

So, before, my dad got Italian leaves in a box, and now it's Baby Spring Mix.  =]

I also thought of naming my son Jim after "gym" for tennis or something about sports.

Ow

My left ear has a pimple that hurts, but I can still chew okay.

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Health

I found that I know that girls with fat dads have to do certain things to keep going.  My dad said he was solid muscle, but I guess when I was born he wasn't.  He came out of the marines, but so did a lot of dads.

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Problems

It feels like I need more water.  I'm a bit taxed.  I feel kinda like Christmas walking around seeing lights or jogging slowly, tired, wanting something.

Problems

So, I woke up with my left ear plug out.  I got rid of the wax clogging it.  The clear waterproof earplugs let water in.  It's harder to hear, like it's muffled.  I feel a pain, not sure if it's a pimple, more on the flesh but feels like hurt from water.  Sometimes, it sorta crackles and bubbles in a watery way.  My jaw feels funny when it opens, but I feel kinda like a singer as a fan of Les Misérables.

Dreams

I had good dreams, hard to remember, now.  I regret to inform you, I was trying to imagine someone hugging me and I felt tacky.  I had 2 or 3 dreams.  I was aware of them at the time but now forget.

Going to Bed

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How I'm Feeling

I've been getting upset and am bloated and took a shower but feel like sorta filled with gelly worms or something but not literally.

I think I justified getting upset ... forget ... ah yes I felt I was given the message a pain was multiplied a lot, and I want to avoid it but I can't help but formulating some reaction.  I just hope it gets better.

Ow

My left ear is hurting, need more water.

Ate

I had 5 pieces of maple bacon stuck together not microwaved long.
2 packs of cheesy grits.

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2 French bread pizzas
Oscar Meyer Weiner my dad got, beef, probably bun length, with Heinz ketchup, on wheat
A more large zucchinni

I just had:
2 French bread pizzas

Now I'm making a small zucchinni.

I might have some asparagus's or cooked leaves.

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Something Weird

I just realized that it's all about kids with dads from L.A. and Florida.

Ages of Places

I just found that Fort Lauderdale is the oldest, like early 1800s, then Key West had a fort as well in the mid 1800s and became the most successful place, then Miami.  I guess the early English settlers of Jamestown are the next best place to go to.  I just found Miami was found late 1800s and Key West early 1800s.  I guess Key West is interesting.  So is Fort Lauderdale.  Miami is in the middle.

I'm not sure what's so interesting about like ... I dunno like who's in on what if it's about people in Europe and people I guess in certain parts of the U.S.  I wonder what a European does in Key West.  I guess if you were from another part of the U.S. before that you would have more heritage there.  Also, very old colonies are interesting.  I think it's interesting, the English.  I know the oldest continuously and 2nd overall oldest city in the U.S. is Spanish, so I guess the mixing pots of Key West and Fort Lauderdale are of more prestige.  See, there's this movie that used to be in the wax muesum when I went back to visit.  It showed a girl drowning in a boat who was Spanish.  It makes me think of the old Spanish play.  They even had a church.  So, it seemed like Egypt or something.  It was a big, dark ocean, and she got lost.  She was so pretty.  There was another movie.  Wait this is in the vistor's center.  The other 1 in the wax museum showed a boy chosing to go through the trees and finding skeletons.

I think Ellen DeGeneres's mom probably has ancesetry in New Orleans (I already forget, it was discovered in the 1600s ... 1690.)  It seems her mom's ancestry dates back to the 1800s.  I don't see what that has to do with people from other areas of the country.  I read her father isn't from the U.S.  In the interview, he didn't have an accent.  I know the English here sometimes don't use an accent, but they know the accent.  Well, I mean, it's interesting because we're interested in that, people from out-of-the-U.S.

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Stop trying to make my family similar.  Why should I respect you?

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Let's just shovel Ellen DeGeneres out.  She's listening to my dad and said my mom was bs.  She thinks that being good in some way means you have fun and say you're crap.  She thinks it means something too that I put her name in my shit.  Well, I didn't want you to make me think my mom was a negro.  I don't want to play your game like this.  Ooh, does that tie in with some message that you think means something?

Ooh, I didn't know what to say.  Isn't that why I'm posting online?  Why are you attacking me?  You're just racist and don't deserve anything and will probably be hurt.  You'll find you made some mistake and get mad.

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Just admit it, you're mean.  It's because you're racist and because of the n word thing.  You just want to prove you're something.  You think that everything has to be like some big thing that answers like every question.  Well, what question did it answer?  Some thing you did?

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I don't care about you people not from the Southern U.S.A. culture spreading your culture around the world.  I don't mean that no I would never do anything like that nor that I've thought about that kind of thing.

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LOOK I CAN'T STAND IT FIX IT

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I think someone made my password not work.  Now, I have a list of 4 passwords for Twitter.  Why don't I just *beep* you?  You think my life isn't worth it and you can just make anything happen.

Cultural Appreciation

Does Ellen DeGeneres honestly believe people generally pack their things and head down to historical sites?  I guess they do in New Orleans, but I mean it seems more like it's from the early 1900s.

In the nation's oldest continuing city in Northeastern Florida, which is Spanish and very, very hot other than in the winter and maybe some of the fall, unsure, imagine like homeschooled girls.  I remember the theater, but like the kids weren't all like old-fashioned.  1 was friends with a girl from New Jersey, not big roles I saw in the historical thing.

I don't know why it seems so Hollywood creepy to you.  I guess that's like the thing waiting to happen.  Wish someone would like tell me what they want to know.

My Friends

So, my friends were mostly not from the South.  Pretty much, it seemed like all of them weren't.  I mean, yes, I've met people who came from New Orleans.

Relating From Your Parents?

So, you get the melting idea from your father?  What about the mother?  Hm, I know someone with a Spanish mom.  I guess it's about the dad.  Hm.  But I was with my mom.  I don't melt.

Where You're From

What do you think about people who were born in Florida or California, a long time ago?  Or New Orleans?  Or maybe Cleveland?  You know, any old place would be interesting to someone else.  I'm not sure how  interesting Pennsylvania and New York would be, but I never lived there..  The nice thing about Pennsylvania and New York is it's kinda physical and a place where you can move around.  I don't know about saying it isn't modern.  Maybe, it's just moral.

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I just watched some of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I saw a picture of a lady with a face that was melting.  I realized about living in the nation's oldest continuing city.  It is a haunting place.  Florida is, too.  My mom also is not from the U.S.  However, when you're there, it's just kinda like not much there.  It's like fixed up with like you just see like the old buildings of like benches in the schools, you know from maybe the 1600s or 1700s or maybe 1800s.  I think they had photos of old people alive who went there.  I did a camp.  I remember seeing like the old Spanish stuff, the things hanging up, the way they wash each cup.  It just seemed normal, kinda clean and tidy but maybe haunting to think of the racism.  I don't think they were pictured as tan tan like South America nor slick.  I don't know what they looked like.  I know rich people did some stuff there, but obviously it's not all over.  I know I toured it a lot, and people who visited think they have a grasp.  3 years.  I never thought of it as a ghost town.  I know some people there, but they don't talk to me, now.  The ghost tour might be cool, but in Key West it just seemed kinda normal.  I don't know, it was about people jumping from a hotel I remember and like mixed people in a grave.  There was a joke about it being bad for tourism, Diamond Dave.  He looked like the dad in My Fair Lady with a top hat.  I remember now seeing the thing about the house on the street with the doll that moved over.  Not sure when it was, but it seemed like around 1900, possibly.  I was with my little girl cousin alone, and she held my hand, though of course it didn't help enough.  That reminds me of New Orleans.  For some reason, I know a lot about that place.

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Maybe because Lily Rose is black she is special.

Ellen DeGeneres literally believes her generation is certified and anything they do will be taken seriously to others, in some way.  She thinks literally that excursions are real symbols.

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You've given me a very uncomfortable time.

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Track my dad.  He was acting annoying thinking my daughter was a nigger because of "mistakes" I made by accident that may have been good.

Also, I get reactions on how things load from people I like that are annoying.

Problems

Why are you so picky in a racist way about people's temper and like their state of health and hygiene?

Food

So, for lunch, I have stuff like fish, thick red sausage if my dad got it, lettuce and cucumbers, tangerines, and I don't remember what else.  I guess I was depending on the fish.

My wounds are healing quickly.

Ellen DeGeneres and Tim Burton should learn to relax.  I'm gonna take a bath, soon.  I wanna make a new blog.  3)

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I returned the webcam and got $24 back.  I got an ice cream bar.

My dad was supposed to get me a lunch back but didn't.

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Did you ever consider that people can have an opinion?

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So, you think you have to have the faults of your mom?

Mall

I was at the mall yesterday and wore my green buttoned kinda square shirt with a new pair of jeans from school.  School starts Monday|Tuesday.

Shopping

I got like 9 bottles of nail polish for @ $7 and 1 $4 for $50, 1 @ JCPenney, the rest at Sears, a great place for nails, but they have lots of cheap nail polish..  There was this lady there who said go see the lady in the nails.  They both had an accent.  Then, she said to go check out in the clothes.  So, I have like $50 left, and I don't want to go to McDonald's anymore, but I mean I'll go there for fun.  I'm bringing my food to school, not sure what I'd buy there.  I mean, if I get hungry.  It shouldn't be that big a deal.  I mean, I can eat at home.  My breakfasts aren't really all that big, but it's not just flakes.  Flakes are good, used to like, er, those frosted wheaties.

I'm taller! =]

5'3" on the dot, when I woke up, solid as a rock, not that I wasn't about that height, before

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Dream

- There was a baby put in a tub because someone felt that it was feeling bad.  She looked like Nell Burton with sparkly blue eyes and thick, rich hair.  She had a protruding face.  She was dipped in water that was low, but then, the water raised, in a baby tub, probably in a low bathtub.  Eventually she drowned.  They might have lifted her.  After awhile she moved up herself.  It sounded like she was waving her arms saying "airplane."  I tried to coo her, too, in a kind of menacing, nice way.  Eventually, it seemed she would drown.

- Before, I was with "a theater teacher" "from the past."  This person said "I did the program."  She was staying at my house, like a foreign exchange student.  She was eating fried chicken, and that was all she felt like eating at that hour I could tell.  We got on a couch, and it showed something ... oh, before, there were fat people in our class on a stage, 1st 2, then 3, then a small 1 that kinda ran, with her.  I showed her about running forward with your arms in front of you.  Then, I was on the couch with her behind me.  I had seen her skin like dinosaur scales.  Something came on, puppets, the puppets got scales, and I kept feeling like a bubbly punching at my crotch from her feet kicking.  This lasted a long time, and I woke up feeling kinda pleasant, in a way, as far as being stimulated.

- Before the baby, I saw a cute boy who had kinda a thick watery face but looked English otherwise with light brown hair in a bowl cut kinda combed back and probably to the side or the other way around.  He was taller than me but considerably small.  He was with his dad and 2 siblings.  This dad kinda looked Jewish Polish, short.  His sister looked Japanese but kinda European, since he was.  I don't know, guess the other sibling might have been an older brother or sister.  They were all ½ Japanese.  The girl looked at me and was like gaping I was Chinese, and then I had to tell her I had Indonesian and Dutch culture for 500 years.  We were walking down, like a gray tall long hall.  It reminds me of this thing they have here called Ice at this huge place that's like a hotel and has like even things displayed, like at hotels at Disney.  The ceiling is very high, and it has so many huge pathways.  The reason I like living in Orlando now is because I guess I'll see if I can afford a Disney pass and ask my parents to help me buy stuff, maybe next month, and so I can, well, before, I thought I'd hang out on the outside, ride the trains, walk through the hotels, eat at Downtown Disney and look at the Christmas shop and stuff, walk around outside the parks maybe.  I'm not sure what I'd do in Disney every weekend.  I'm just wondering what going on Splash Mountain a lot would be like.  They sure have a good ride of Space Mountain.  I do like walking through the historical stuff, like the MGM stuff.

- Before, I know Ellen DeGeneres was in it.  It was something more serious and sorta media-ish.

Also, I had a good look at the cute boy.  I liked him.

Problem

Lynx isn't answering, I want a deal.  It's not that expensive, I found..

Schedule

I signed up for a weight training class in the mornings, the other 3 classes in the evening. It's a circuit cardio class.

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Another Thing

I changed my SQ. Had to make a new account, but it remembered me.

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Got In

I passed the math test. I can take the math class.

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Thin!

I didn't miss anything on the test but probably got a bit less than 3/4.

I have on diapers and my hips are skinny.

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